My diary of random thoughts

[AnnieMae]

Nothing goes as planned. Absolutely nothing. I’m so tired and tired of the stress in my body. I just wish I could be happy and things would line up, but good things just don’t happen to me. I wish they did. I soooo wish they did.

 

[AnnieMae]

I am so screwed. He warned me and I didn’t listen. Now it’s coming. It’s really coming. I will always be stupid, stuck, crying and full of animosity. I will never be happy or find another form of happiness. I’m confused but that doesn’t matter. None of it matters to people I want it to matter to. And nothing is the same but everything has changed.

 

[AnnieMae]

I can’t fix my life! Everything is a huge mess and it’s all because I met the wrong person. A manipulator. Now, I can’t stop viewing everyone else like that. And I can’t stop feeling like one myself. I will never be better than my abuser because I am a baby. My family babies me and coddles me. I have no true friends. I am tired all the time. I am stressed about my damn life! Most of all, I am so freaking lonely.

 

[AnnieMae]

I just wish something would work out for me. I had such an amazing life before, and now it’s all for sh*t. I can’t even pull myself together enough mentally to get things done. My life went to crap, and his is better. I can’t ever change things and it sucks. Life is a joke! It’s all a joke! No one is helping me. Therapy isn’t helping me get grounded or change. I am a loser. I don’t care what anyone says. I’m tired of being “nice” to myself. Then, I get pissed because I look at how disgusting my life is. It really is. He set me up. He really did. It was amazing, then awful, then full of a bunch of lies and deceit that I got caught in and now I am so effed. No one can help me even pull my focus together.

 

[AnnieMae]

No one can help me ? Therapy doesn’t help, nothing helps. No one can help me for real. My life is going down the drain and no one can help me. ?

 

[AnnieMae]

I hate my life. Nothing ever works out for me. It’s the complete opposite of everything I have ever wanted. Now, I’m a criminal, who has nightmares, freaks out all the time, can’t have kids, attracts people I’m not attracted to, and all this other crap. I hate my life. Oh, and my parents are basically dying, my dad has stage 4 cancer, and I can’t pull myself together mentally. My life is so effed!!!! Everything is going down the drain and I can’t stop it!!!!

 

[AnnieMae]

I messed with the devil. My ex told me he was not a nice person, now my life is effed! No one can truly help me. I have so many issues on top of the charges that I just can’t take the physical pain in my body anymore. But the judge didn’t care. Neither did the police. No one cares. ?

 

[joeylittle]

I'm really sorry to hear you're in so much pain, @AnnieMae. Are you working with a therapist/doctor at all?

 

[AnnieMae]

I'm really sorry to hear you're in so much pain, @AnnieMae. Are you working with a therapist/doctor at all?

You don’t understand. My life is going to sh*t because of all of this stuff that has happened. Because I am crazy! I am too emotional to everyone! Except for those that have gone through crap too. My life is going to hell in a hand basket.

 

[AnnieMae]

You don’t understand. My life is going to sh*t because of all of this stuff that has happened. Because I am crazy! I am too emotional to everyone! Except for those that have gone through crap too. My life is going to hell in a hand basket.

Therapy has ruined my life! It really has! Now I have to take on everything by myself. I will never find anyone, I can’t make amends. I can’t do anything. I can’t fix myself. I can’t do it, but no one will help me get out of my own way.

 

[AnnieMae]

No one gets it. No one sees it but me. My life is literally going down the tubes. I can’t handle the stress anymore but I have no choice but to move on. I messed up a completely good relationship with someone all because of a goddamn psychic. These damn readings have ruined my entire life.

 

[Chris-duck]

Therapy has ruined my life!

How did it ruin your life? I'm not disagreeing, just asking. Cos your answer could help us find other solutions to what you're dealing with.