Sufferer New And Scared

[RainbowMaestro]

Hi Everyone,

I am reaching out as a last resort. Complex situations from childhood and now work have left me with a PTSD diagnosis, dissociative episodes and a new onset of self harm. I live in a regional setting, resources are limited and I don't know how I am going to get through this.,

I have a husband and 4 children who dont know what to do with me. I am affecting them and feel guilty all of the time.

PTSD is related to work, which makes things complicated. I am trying to keep my hands busy so I don't hurt myself again.

Ironically, I have an extensive knowledge of trauma and trauma based practice through my job, it just seems that I completely suck at putting it in place for myself.

Nice to meet you all

B

 

[gealach]

Welcome to the forum. There are a lot of supportive and understanding people here, don't be afraid to reach out.

 

[BoN-bOn]

Hi...I'm new here as well. I've recently started down a path of self destruction. I am just now realizing that I've had PTSD for so many years . I think I knew that something wasn't right because of the panic attacks & nightmares, but I never could put my finger on it & kept dismissing it, hiding it, and using alcohol to cope. I have a history of childhood emotional, physical, & sexual abuse as well as a six year marriage that was severely abusive. I left the marriage ten years ago so it has been a shock that all of these things still have an effect on me. I have worked so hard to get to this point. I went to school and became an RN & am finally able to provide for myself & my son. I feel like everything is falling apart. I've worked too hard to lose everything now!! I start EMDR therapy today & I'm very nervous about it but am also hopeful for some relief as the nightmares & insomnia have worsened recently. You're not alone....we will get through this!

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :hug:

 

[Muted]

I am new here too. I can really relate to how you feel. It feels like life never lets up for me. Welcome to the forum.