Relationship Now I Need Help...

[ProudWife99]

I so understand. I refrain from even SAYING we're doing well out loud as to avoid the downword spiral. Have I said PTSD sucks, today?

 

[amethist]

How fast can you blink Trembling, because sometimes they do change in the blink of an eye.

 

[Trembling]

Good morning,
tried the blinking - you are so right, amethist!
PW - yes, so much!!

I try to figure out a way for myself to forgive, but also to not get stuck with the bad memories of the "comments" he makes when he is in the episode.

It is kind of amazing how much a human being can take, and how you all support each single time to push the "down" person up again.

PS: Have I mentioned that PTSD really sucks? ;)

 

[SeekingSerenity]

Hey Trembling, just wanted to let you know I am still thinking about you, and still wishing you well. Stay strong, in the end it will all be so very worthwhile.

And yes, PTSD does suck...:mad:

 

[Trembling]

Oh my god, WHY? A question probably everyone here asked themselves already.

I tried not to question it, myself or him, but it just comes from time to time - then I think of all of you guys, who still have the energy, and see the light at the end of the tunnel....
Yes, SS - it has to be worthwhile!!!

I still believe in it, how? - I am not sure, though I feel I am losing grip myself, I am still moving forward and I function.

There must be a good ending to all our efforts and our love!!!

 

[ProudWife99]

Trembling, just stopping in to reiterate the same message SS did. Still thinking of you and wishing you well.

It has been a crap 48 hours for us too. I guess there has to be "down" moments for us to appreciate the "up" moments. SOmetimes those nasty down moments last entirely too long for my taste.

Peace to you!

 

[Trembling]

PW, thanks a ton! You are so right, downs seem to be much longer than the good moments especially when you are in the middle of the bad ones!
Sorry that this time it hit us all!

I know it is not the best to tell our PTSD partner how we feel, but today I almost lost it, ok I did not - I still stayed calm, but I got a bit louder than usual. Told him that I felt like a broken record and that it is entirely up to him to get his butts together.

I am only there to support, but the hard work has to be done by him!

At least I got him to go to sleep, so I had a bit time for myself before getting my rest.

But - I do not leave my work anymore (for him), no matter what he is telling me on the phone. I explained him today that I will not risk my job, and that I cannot be there 24/7 in person!

We will see, the countdown is running - wedding in less then 3 weeks!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSs