Only took 50 years to deal with my abuse.

[PTSDGuy]

Wow, you work for some real bastards. They have the f*cking gall to increase your workload, and then give you a paycut? That's crazy.

But getting a PsyD would be amazing. Not everyone with a PsyD becomes a therapist, you know - lots of people do research or administration too.

I'm not sure I'd fit into academia too well when I graduate - at 63... But I figure it seems there's a definite need for decent psychologists out there who understand trauma.... and I could work for myself if I wanted to...

I have friends who are university professors, and they have told me for years to get a Doctorate... I never had anything I wanted to learn at that level before... Somehow the idea of making a lot less money was the push I needed I guess.

 

[Deleted member 47099]

Yesterday I got an acceptance letter. ?

Wow. :)
Huge kudos for how you're handling the whole situation!

 

[PTSDGuy]

Wow. :)
Huge kudos for how you're handling the whole situation!

I think I wrote too soon... After talking with my T, who thought I could handle the program, I decided against it... I can always decide later, once I'm deciding without feeling like I'm in a panic... I signed up for one class, which should be enough for cancelling my pay cut at least.

But thank you @Sophy (and @somerandomguy and @bellbird of course) I have no idea how I've managed to handle all of this without going into a downward spiral. But I'm managing to somehow deal with it like a rational adult ?

 

[somerandomguy]

Well, you are a rational adult, though you may not feel like one all the time. So good for you. :tup:

 

[bellbird]

I have no idea how I've managed to handle all of this without going into a downward spiral.

I have a feeling your strength and resilience may have something to do with it ;)

 

[PTSDGuy]

Well, you are a rational adult, though you may not feel like one all the time. So good for you. :tup:

I think you must be confusing me with someone else. ? (But thanks.... I'm working on the whole adult thing....)

 

[PTSDGuy]

I have a feeling your strength and resilience may have something to do with it ;)

One thing my childhood taught me was how to deal with chaos. I'm just starting to learn to appreciate that I survived hell..... So, I think you might be right... :hug:

 

[bellbird]

I'm just starting to learn to appreciate that I survived hell..... So, I think you might be right... :hug:

Hey; there you go! It's one thing for others to see it in you, but for you to (start) seeing it in yourself? Huge step. Very proud of ya :hug:

 

[PTSDGuy]

Hey; there you go! It's one thing for others to see it in you, but for you to (start) seeing it in yourself? Huge step. Very proud of ya :hug:

My T keeps telling me I'm doing amazingly well, and that he thinks the EMDR is helping... I'm still having all kinds of flashbacks, but there are other times when I realize I'm starting to sometimes feel a lot different than even a few months ago. ?

 

[bellbird]

but there are other times when I realize I'm starting to sometimes feel a lot different than even a few months ago. ?

This makes me incredibly happy to hear; smiling for you right now. It is a testament to all the hard work that you are putting in.

 

[PTSDGuy]

This makes me incredibly happy to hear; smiling for you right now. It is a testament to all the hard work that you are putting in.

I can't even fight traffic in LA any more without listening to books like The Body Keeps the Score.... I have to force myself to relax.... and practice meditating.... Otherwise I'd work on stuff 24/7!

 

[somerandomguy]

Hey, thinking of you. Hope everything is ok.