Parsons green attack triggering memories

[Eliza]

I am in a complete panic.
The Parsons Green attack was 2 stops away from me. If I wasn't running late due to a hangover I would have been on that train.
I was also on the bridge during Westminster.
I have been panicky since it happened, but now I've been thrown into complete meltdown. I'm still on the waiting list for CBT, I chased this afternoon and they still don't have any appointments, I've booked a doctor's appointment for tomorrow morning, but I am now feeling dizzy and sick and can't concentrate. I have to pass Parsons Green every day and go to work right near Westminster. I can't escape reminders. And I can't bring myself to tell my friends or family how much I am struggling. I have tried several times.
I am in counselling, but it's not really helping - he seems to just avoid the subject of the attacks.
I know I am in the present and I am fine and my symptoms are just panic. But I honestly feel like I'm about to have a heart attack.
I just don't know what to do right now.

 

[Deleted member 541]

Try practicing some breathing exercises and good coping skills. Keep reminder yourself that you are OK, and it's ok to be worried, but not in panic mode.

 

[Eliza]

Thanks She Cat.
I got to a point yesterday that I just couldn't cope. I went to the doctors this morning and I have been prescribed Betablockers and sleeping tablets.
I hate relying on medication, but I can't carry on with this level of panic all the time. :(