People Not Knowing You Have Ptsd

[holdenmonty]

It is tough I use to see them as two different people but I'm slowly combining them. Well at least trying to, I don't openly talk about it but if the subject comes up I try not to hide it. Or when I'm triggered around people I keep it in my head and if it's bad enough I excuse myself and go to the bathroom and sit in a stall and try to compose myself

 

[Kintsugi]

I am definitely two (or three... or seven) completely different people regarding my trauma and the world. "Simon" is actually my trauma-infested alter ego. Or secret identity, I guess.

When I asked my new boss why I was transfered to his worksite, the reasons were fairly complicated, but he boiled it down to "You're outspoken, not easily intimidated, strong..." I had him on speaker phone with my best friend there, and I mouthed to her, "Who the f*ck is he talking about?" :rolleyes:

 

[ccks]

When I asked my new boss why I was transfered to his worksite, the reasons were fairly complicated, but he boiled it down to "You're outspoken, not easily intimidated, strong..." I had him on speaker phone with my best friend there, and I mouthed to her, "Who the f*ck is he talking about?" :rolleyes:

I hope I don't come off as being insensitive, but the way you stated your response is funny. You most likely are strong and not easily intimated, but you don't feel that way all the time. I've had moments where I realize I am confident or wise, but because I don't feel that way all the time I deny that I can be confident or wise.

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh @Simply Simon :roflmao: , your response was too funny.

I don't think it's separate people, just what we feel we have to project. Not sure about Simply Simon but it's not an awareness thing for me, it's other people's conclusions & judgments based upon how I am looking or acting. Truth is I am very different if they knew me, you can be sweet or pleasant or funny, but not vulnerable in most places. It's utterly exhausting because it's a mode ("on").

 

[holdenmonty]

could be why some people get miss diagnosed as having bi polar

 

[Kiril]

I like to say I'm pretty good at noticing depression, anxiety, divergent affects in other people and myself. I've always been observant, it's always been my thing.

I only tell people I feel I can trust. I tend to hide a lot of things, people say I can be aloof, cryptic, mysterious (I quite like that one). I don't mean to be, it's better than defensive but I just feel I need to lock-in sometimes to prevent any attacks made. I used to act the fool a lot, be too loud, too active, too talkative and that always ended up with me crashing and hurting myself.