General Posting As A Carer And Sufferer - Healing My Son

[Kathy]

Well done to you both Bec! Jim and I are most happy for you!

 

[kers]

Great job for both Matt and you, Bec! Baby steps are the only way we learn to walk & run.

 

[becvan]

Thanks everyone! Very much appreciated.

Matt has been very very ill. He has viral bronchitis. I had brought him into emerg last week and he just needs rest. I had thought he was better but took a turn for the worse on Wednesday. He's been home resting since then.

My eldest son Chris is also here until Sunday. I haven't seen him since May, so this is a lovely visit. I can honestly say I'm in a happy bubble in my house! lol Matt is very thrilled. I don't think I could have made a better X-mas for him than this.

However, Matt wants to go shopping with Chris and I. I haven't been able to let him. He is so sick and he only lasts an hour when not ill. I am afraid that if I let him go to a mall, he will pass out cold on me.

Tomorrow night we are going to go and look at all the X-mas lights and head over to Ryan's to meet his hoard and play video games. Hopefully Matt will be able to handle it.

I have to say I am rather worried about him. He seems to be under more stress than usual. I think that the holiday may be affecting him. I know that Chris here is an extra stressor although good.

I'm a basket case myself. I've been shopping non stop for weeks, which is well over my pushing limits. Family in, Chris here, Matt sick etc.. It's adding up.

I think I just needed to type it out a little and see in black and white the whole situation to kinda see it all.

bec

 

[Nicolette]

Take care Bec

 

[jods]

Tis the season Bec. Only a few more sleeps now & it's all over.

Hope Matt is getting better & you have a good time with your boys.

Take care & hope you have a great Christmas.

 

[becvan]

Thanks!

Chris left on Sunday. We had a great visit. Matt and I had X-mas alone. We recorded opening our presents X-mas morning to send out to family. It was rather fun. We had a very quiet and relaxing day. I think this is the first time I haven't been a stressed out wreck on X-mas! It was very nice and Matt and I enjoyed it a lot.

Today, Matt was wandering around and told me he can't think. He said he's trying to think but can't. It's just blank. LOL so I told him not to think. He looked at me like I was nuts. I explained to him that sometimes we just need a break from that and to go and do something that he could just blank out on for awhile.

He's off making Bionicles now! lol

bec

 

[Jen]

I am glad you had a nice time Bec without to much stress!
Jen

 

[pandora]

Great to hear that you had a peaceful christmas day with Matt.

 

[becvan]

Matt had his first visit out with a student Social Worker today. Somehow his therapist has managed to wrangle one on one time out in the world for him! So his SW picked him up from school. They went to the Terry Fox Memorial and had a bite to eat at Wendy's. Matt had a great time! He really enjoyed it. I am hoping that this will help him with his agoraphobia somewhat.

Therapy is going well, although, major concern has come up. Matt is struggling with suicidal thoughts. He and the therapist have worked on an action plan for him to help him cope and work through the thoughts. However, I am concerned that his medication is contributing to this. He's not due to see his psych for almost another month. Matt is very secretive about this aspect of his PTSD, which isn't helping, as I don't know how often it is taking place. To say the least I am concerned, although glad his therapist is now aware (thanks to me, I told her) and they are working on it.

bec

 

[Kathy]

That must be worrisome for you Bec. I do hope it all works out, I am glad the therapist is aware so that they may keep an eye on Matt. Suicidal tendencies are nothing to fool with, as I'm certain you are aware.

 

[Deleted member 93]

I cannot even begin to imagine this horror. Bec, do keep close. You are in my prayers and I will be there as much as I can. Having this and having that fear. Dealing with your own thoughts and your babies... Maybe why lack of response, who can get this?

 

[Jen]

Can you get in to see Pysch earler Bec. Maybe if you call her / him with your concern?
Hang in there it must be difficult!