VioletButterfly
Diamond Member
Thank you to all of you for your prayers and thoughtful responses. I found them very encouraging and heart-warming. It helps me to be reminded when I feel I am so lost and alone that it is God who is in control and that He is all around me even when I am not there for myself. In the natural, I just become so overwhelmed with events of the past and suffering in the present, that I become paralyzed by thinking it is a foregone negative conclusion about what will become of me. I forget how to think and see through the eyes of Jesus where love, peace, compassion and strength reside.
Recovery4me - What you wrote touched me so deeply. I don't think I can yet find adequate words, but I'll try. Thank you for the lovely card and song, and for your spot-on insights and thoughts regarding self-doubt and where I've been that God has lifted me up out of. I seem to have a blind-side when it comes to acknowledgement, especially when it comes to what I, through His grace, have accomplished and how many times God has truly stepped in and intervened on my behalf when I have been in danger. I would like to spend some time considering this today and praying about it. It might shine some light in as I wander through the rooms of my mind, getting lost while trying to heal so that I can keep despair at bay. That it is my spirit that is important, not the circumstances I face in the world. I believe God tells us we are to be in the world and not of it.
The Albatross - Thank you for the verses on fear. I know that it is fear that is driving a lot of what I'm dealing with and how I'm dealing with it/or not. I understand, fundamentally, that living an authentic life for me is about walking in faith which means I must trust and not doubt because I do know who is in control. That faith/love and fear cannot exist in this mindset if I'm doing it right. I keep trying each day to stand in that faith/love. It's by grace that I am here and on good days I celebrate that. On darker days, I seem to lose the ability to see that there is a purpose for all of this and a purpose for me in this world. It is me who steps away. I think that's where shame steps in, so thank you for the verse on shame as well. All good reminders of the truth and where I want to live spiritually.
Again, through many tears of gratitude for your kindness and prayers, thank you. I hope you all have a blessed day. VB
P.S. Also, I want to add the first line from today's Jesus Calling entry: "I am taking care of you."
Recovery4me - What you wrote touched me so deeply. I don't think I can yet find adequate words, but I'll try. Thank you for the lovely card and song, and for your spot-on insights and thoughts regarding self-doubt and where I've been that God has lifted me up out of. I seem to have a blind-side when it comes to acknowledgement, especially when it comes to what I, through His grace, have accomplished and how many times God has truly stepped in and intervened on my behalf when I have been in danger. I would like to spend some time considering this today and praying about it. It might shine some light in as I wander through the rooms of my mind, getting lost while trying to heal so that I can keep despair at bay. That it is my spirit that is important, not the circumstances I face in the world. I believe God tells us we are to be in the world and not of it.
The Albatross - Thank you for the verses on fear. I know that it is fear that is driving a lot of what I'm dealing with and how I'm dealing with it/or not. I understand, fundamentally, that living an authentic life for me is about walking in faith which means I must trust and not doubt because I do know who is in control. That faith/love and fear cannot exist in this mindset if I'm doing it right. I keep trying each day to stand in that faith/love. It's by grace that I am here and on good days I celebrate that. On darker days, I seem to lose the ability to see that there is a purpose for all of this and a purpose for me in this world. It is me who steps away. I think that's where shame steps in, so thank you for the verse on shame as well. All good reminders of the truth and where I want to live spiritually.
Again, through many tears of gratitude for your kindness and prayers, thank you. I hope you all have a blessed day. VB
P.S. Also, I want to add the first line from today's Jesus Calling entry: "I am taking care of you."
