General Rant and complain thread open to all supporters

Friday

Moderator
Can I just say how much I looooooooooove someone trialing a new med on my one day off in two weeks? So a fun morning, that would have reasonably (good lord willing and the creek don’t rise) progressed into a fun day; turns into an absolute shit show. 😖

All over my use of the word “so”.

(Clearly, an emotionally charged word with hidden depths of meaning that -in no way- mean what I actually meant but instead mean….. aaaaargh. brick wall bang head. Brick wall bang head…. Something I have never, in my entire life, espoused, felt, thought, or believed.)

It’s just like… Have you met me?!?

Not only was Japanese my first language, so I use “so” & “ah so” reflexly, and near constantly, throughout the day… but I have never, in my entire life, thought/felt/believed what you’re saying I “actually” think/feel/believe -and therefore meant- when I said it.

You. Are. Adding. 1+1 = 64.

Oh. And now everything is fine?
Aaaaaaand, just kidding! We’re back to shit show.

f*cking f*ckity f*ck f*ck f*ck.
 

Friday

Moderator
How dare you say a word! You know you can breathe “with an attitude”? I didn’t know that ten years ago.
It’s funny… because it’s true. 😂 <<< This lil guy seems to be playing the margins on the whole laugh or cry thing.

I can't say anything. Even the looks are wtong. Or the breathing.. or tone.. or words... or silence.
Yeah… that bitchy silence. If you’re quiet you’re pouting, if you’re speaking you’re picking a fight. Those are the days I leave and go hang out with my friends.
Yep, yep!
 
We’re personally doing fine financially, but many are not. I’ve been back to work for awhile and vet is on a pension so our income is normal right now. A lot of people are struggling here though. We just do not have the same kind of social safety nets here that other countries do.

Covid is so rampant here I think most people have just made peace with it. The response in the US has been f*cked since the beginning and it definitely has not improved with time.

I’m actually optimistic since vaccinations have started... does that cheer your husband up at all? At least there is some light at the end of the tunnel.

The only advice I can give you is to not let it suck you in. Just because he is obsessive with something doesn’t mean you have to participate. If he needs to check the tickers that’s fine, but you don’t have to listen to him talk about it every single time he does. If you need a Covid break tell him... especially with it being the holidays. I think no Covid discussion on Christmas Day would not be too much to ask for.
I am scared of being forced to getting the vaccine because it's not safe. In the past I saw the ingredients in the vaccine and there was one chemical that isn't suppose to be used in humans or animals. It can cause cancer and other things. It's not typically vaccine inserts. I can work because the mask triggers me and the news stresses me out. On that of that I have severe joint pain and I have EFM sensitive that makes my PTSD and joint pain worse. Seeing people wearing a mask usually triggers me. Going to my local grocery is usually very unpleasant thing because of my EMF issues. I can't go on a bus and like a normal person. Increase joint pain and my heart issue increases. Yet I have social assistance expecting me to go to work. I'm in so much pain right now, I wish the pain would go away.
There are people wishing people like me not getting vaccine get arrested or shot. I had two people wearing a mask give me an attitude.
 

Sideways

Moderator
@CanadianAsianDude - as the Thread Title indicates, this is a thread for Supporters. Before posting in the Supporter's section, you need to Read This!

Forums are divided into sections for people suffering ptsd, and those supporting a person who suffers ptsd.

There is a general thread for ranting in the Social Forum which you can find here.

If you have questions about where to post? Please Contact Us.
 

Joenot1368

New Here
@CanadianAsianDude - as the Thread Title indicates, this is a thread for Supporters. Before posting in the Supporter's section, you need to Read This!

Forums are divided into sections for people suffering ptsd, and those supporting a person who suffers ptsd.

There is a general thread for ranting in the Social Forum which you can find here.

If you have questions about where to post? Please Contact Us.
So appreciative of this forum specifically. We supporters either walk around on eggshells or try to process the complete abandonment that we may face (not blaming the survivor but….the stories i
am really talking about is the complete over the top reaction and abandonment. Our PTSD partners were victim to a horrific event or events. That is to be respected. But We supporters are victims too. Totally innocent bystanders find ourselves in the middle of a field of rakes in the dark.

So thank you for
allowing me
To vent. I am I’m shock with what happened to me and it’s been two years. And I have tried just as hard as anyone.

Not being validated?
Sure nobody owes us. But if the answer is always dea with it and move on; then there is nothing for supporters to ponder.
 

Friday

Moderator
It can make you question your own sanity.
OMFG… Been dealing with some of the 1+1=64 stuff, lately. 😵‍💫

Also the being told “my” thoughts/feelings/motivations are “the” reason why he’s mad.

Um. No. Never thought that. Never felt that. Never did that. I am NOT going to apologize for something you imagined I thought/felt/did. And beyond that I am going to KEEP repeating, that isn’t me. Was never me. Will never be me. Who you are afraid I am? Is not who I am. No matter HOW afraid/angry/convinced you are. That’s not me. It just isn’t.

Hard line? Held.

But still? It’s the little things… like I’ve put cologne -or mens deodorant- on before bed since I was 17 (and I’m 40-mumble, now). And I find myself just holding the bottle, looking at it, and setting it down. Because of wild ass, totally wrong, heartbreaking accusations made in a stress fueled clusterf*ck of a freak out.

Okay… hard line, mostly held.
 
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