Reached My Limit

[Flu]

Every night for the past 3 months, I felt a pressuring headache which triggered suicidal thoughts.
I'm tired of this incurable loneliness.

 

[Friday]

I flip my "I'mTired Lists" lists around. Now, I tend to speak pretty rough to myself, to make myself laugh, so keep in mind I'm quoting me-talking-to-me "Tired? That ain't tired. That's a goals list, bitch!" :D

Tired List
- Nightly headaches
- Headache triggered Ideation
- Incurable loneliness.

Goals List
- Treat headaches (doctor, meds, nutrition, sleeping in the daytime, whatever)
- Alter knee-jerk response from ideation to a different thought process or coping mechanism
- Curable loneliness = What? ((Aka what's different from incurable loneliness & curable loneliness?... And then start working towards that.))

 

[Truthful_Whispers]

I have suicidal thoughts often also, during my headaches. I suffer from the cluster variety. A large dose of caffeine is the only thing that helps the pain. Excedrin Migraine seems to work fairly well.

 

[Ronin]

The other day I decided to treat incurable loneliness by listing how people'd fit it, and what I'd do with it afterward, their reaction, my reaction, looks simple right?

Found out it's just too much hassle. And people'd do things wrong & make me angry &/or other things I'm not equipped to deal with nearly half as anger and/or the kinds of anger that make me feel suicidal and I'd be back at square one: addressing suicidality I'm at now.

Just sharing; some times waiting things out? Can be a rather useful option, not a thing 'suckers do', patience is a strength, even more in times seemingly everything just rolls the wrong way.