@ladee , I know telling him was long overdue. For some reason I'm not super worked up about it. I think some of it is that I'm so overwhelmed by everything that I'm numb but I also think that some of my fears have faded a bit due to doing EMDR with him and some of the nice things that have come out of his mouth in the past month. Maybe the relationship has strengthened enough. My biggest concern is that he forgets so much stuff with me at times. I wouldn't care if he forgot little personal stuff like people's names in the things I tell him about or the details of things I tell him about but he will legitimately forget what the plan is to treat me. He is quite laid back in certain ways and he might be a "go with the flow" kind of person, so maybe that's it? At other times, I feel like he knows me inside and out and can almost read my mind. But I'll find out in a week and a half.