Sufferer Saying hello. New C-PTSD suffering member. Programmer. Married with a child. Hoping to find others w similar struggles getting better.

[wfcs]

I found it easier to write about my struggles here. Additionally, for me, writing in foreign language somehow helps as well.
Don't force it, take your time. Maybe try with diary thread. I never thought I'd write one for myself, but to my surprise, writing with knowledge that I will be heard by people with similar experiences makes it easier.

Thanks for the tips i'll try the diary thread.

 

[wfcs]

Thanks for the tips i'll try the diary thread.

This is a silly question but where do you find the diary thread

 

[Charbella]

This is a silly question but where do you find the diary thread

Trauma Diaries there’s a members one too that’s only accessible if your a member.

 

[wfcs]

Trauma Diaries there’s a members one too that’s only accessible if your a member.

How do you access the member diary

 

[mszl]

How do you access the member diary

Follow the link Charbella posted, create new post, start writing. Good luck!

 

[Sideways]

Mod Note:

How do you access the member diary

If you ever have questions like this about how to use the forum, hit us up at Contact Us and we can walk you through things without derailing threads:)

 

[Survivor3]

Hello @mszl , I have a history of complex trauma, depression and anxiety. Always up for chatting and swapping stories.

 

[mszl]

Hello @mszl , I have a history of complex trauma, depression and anxiety. Always up for chatting and swapping stories.

Sure @Survivor3, I'd happily chat with you. I'm not yet sure how open I'm willing to go at the moment though.

 

[Survivor3]

Sure @Survivor3, I'd happily chat with you. I'm not yet sure how open I'm willing to go at the moment though.

I understand

 

[Gigi]

Hello everyone. My name is Bartek and I’m from Poland.

Professionally, I’m a programmer. I have a wife and a child. Apart from tech, my interests include popular science (mostly space-related), science fiction & fantasy books, and video games.

I was diagnosed with C-PTSD about a year ago. Long story short - I survived sexual abuse that lasted several years during my teens, then somehow made it until almost my 40’s without proper help. For the last year, I’ve been on therapy and medication. My condition was getting better slowly but steadily. But for a couple of weeks, I’ve been feeling worse and worse. I haven’t felt this disconnected from reality and myself since cutting my ties with my abuser. I find it hard to rest, relax, and find pleasure in things I liked. Plus, I experience random sparks of sadness out of nowhere. So yeah, despite being socially awkward, I finally decided to try finding other people who face similar struggles. I hope to find here someone to talk to during hard times and get better informed about my condition.

Read somewhere that those of us who suffered C-ptsd and are searching for healing are on a hero's journey. Some days feel as if made great progress only to flashback a few days later, crying hot tears.

Researching our diagnosis is heartbreaking and time consuming. Yet, like an addict, we keep coming back for more. Sometimes wish I was still in the dark. Having the scab pulled off time and again is so very painful.

Keep telling myself that must ascend, even as I slip and slide. And discarding myself, as not being worth the fight, would be the ultimate betrayal; to all my abused inner children and as the victim of domestic abuse.

Bartek, keep on keeping on. Don't give up. IMHO, a complete healing may not be; as trauma is so ingrained into our neurobiology. We have to stay on top of it, using whatever tools work for us individually. That in itself so angers me at times. How dare it not resolve! Stop the suffering, the heartache. Enough. Please. Stop.

But you're not alone. Cry, rant, read, pray, meditate, do somatic work, rant and cry again. But don't give up on yourself Bartek. You found this site for a reason. Stay the process.

 

[mszl]

Read somewhere that those of us who suffered C-ptsd and are searching for healing are on a hero's journey. Some days feel as if made great progress only to flashback a few days later, crying hot tears.

Researching our diagnosis is heartbreaking and time consuming. Yet, like an addict, we keep coming back for more. Sometimes wish I was still in the dark. Having the scab pulled off time and again is so very painful.

Keep telling myself that must ascend, even as I slip and slide. And discarding myself, as not being worth the fight, would be the ultimate betrayal; to all my abused inner children and as the victim of domestic abuse.

Bartek, keep on keeping on. Don't give up. IMHO, a complete healing may not be; as trauma is so ingrained into our neurobiology. We have to stay on top of it, using whatever tools work for us individually. That in itself so angers me at times. How dare it not resolve! Stop the suffering, the heartache. Enough. Please. Stop.

But you're not alone. Cry, rant, read, pray, meditate, do somatic work, rant and cry again. But don't give up on yourself Bartek. You found this site for a reason. Stay the process.

Thank you @Gigi!

 

[Weemie]

Dzień dobry!