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I went through a similar dynamic in an abusive relationship with someone who had childhood trauma but was refusing treatment for it...
Somehow, abusive dynamics like that tap into a very vulnerable, deep part of us... which is what makes it so complicated...
We don't respond to that dynamic from the rational, adult part of our psyche...
The abuse taps into something very deep and vulnerable in us... and untangling THAT is super difficult...
It would be so easy, if it had only affected us on the rational/ adult level of our psyche...
That's exactly how I've felt.
It's hit me right in the absolute bottom of my gut.
It's such a strange feeling... I can feel the depth of it in parts of me that I haven't even been aware of for absolutely years.
I feel like that sounds weird, but it's just what I'm experiencing.
But as I focus on it, I think I can link it to some specific things, and can kind of sense where it might have come from.
Needless to say, I absolutely *must* stop rescuing people, and need to develop some healthy teeth to defend myself with too.
So... yup... absolutely s**t, but it's probably shown me more about myself than any other situation I've been in.
And yes, I'd rather not know it... but... it's probably better this way in the long run!