wallygator
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I am finding that taking medication helps me stay more stable. I am still isolated and still the same introvert as I always was, but now I don’t have to beat myself up of be negative to myself 24 hours a day. It comes and goes but it is so much more quiet now. I have been back on medication for 17 days now and I can hardly remember what it was like, the noise in my mind, what I do notice is that it got so quiet and peaceful in my mind. the self hatred is tamped down and I am not acting “weird” in peoples eyes. My lack of boundaries has dimished and I am not acting out because I feel dysregulated. I rather like the quietness now and I like being alone most of the tme since I don’t have to deal with self inficted negativity. I can still hear that negative hateful voice telling me how I do not deserve to be here, but I can ignore it and it goes away after a little while.
