Stopped Benzos...Just Overwhelmed.

[pandora]

The first day was VERY rough..was he able to get on methadone or suboxone? Suboxone is truly a miracle drug. The doctor told me that the results that I am experiencing with the suboxone at this dose after only a week is the results he sees people experience after 5 or 6 weeks of methadone. It was a great decision. I am also taking 8 mg..the max is up to 24 and I am responding well at this dose. The withdawals are minimum..I still have the cravings but I have to change my thoughts, focus and put my energy into something else. I hope this is something that he may be able to get too...it really helped with the withdrawals. I will be reassessed tomorrow after my therapy and I am so looking forward to going! I hope he has good results like I have. All the best to you and him...
I am glad I was able to give hope to you!!!

 

[This Ends Now]

Pandora,

Congrats in getting off the benzos and pain killers!!! I know exactly how much withdraw sucks but the worst part is over now and you are doing AWESOME!!! Stay strong sister!!!

{{{HUGS}}}

Liz H.

 

[SunnyBrookFarm]

Pandora -

You are doing GREAT! (I just had a picture of Tony the Tiger in my head - LOL).

Seriously, do you have any idea how much strength it took for you to give your mom those pills and to not drink when you wanted to? I am so happy for you - way to go girl!!!!!

 

[anni]

I'm new here- and saw this benzo post. I did this 6 months ago and whoa it sucked hugely!! You sound exactly like I felt! I got through it by wondering how the world would look without that pill and it looks awfully nice. I see you have many friends who obviously know you telling you to hang in there but if you'll also like to hear it from someone new here, well, hang in there!!

 

[suzie q]

You go Pandora!

You are living now, not existing. I'm so glad the withdrawals were something you seemed to fly by...When I read about your close call with the "enemy" (your ativan) my heart went in my stomach! When I first stopped my addiction it was the hardest thing to not think of it, want it, dream of it, smell it, feel it...What a nightmare.

I wouldn't have been able to give them to someone, I would have put them back in my pocket kinda secret like.. You are very determined and smart in making the decision to give them away. That way they have no power over you! Thinking about drinking shortly after is so very common. You are wise to know that an addiction is an addiction. I would use these "things" to run away from feeling uncomfortable in our own skin. You are very strong and very brave to have made those choices.

Learning about my addictions helped me fight that daily fight. I had to make the choice to use or not. If I were to use today, I would be in hell. Fortunately I have been taught how to live with this addiction. Having the tools really helps make it easier to live life on life's terms.

Congrats and best wishes :thumbs-up:thumbs-up:Hug_emoticon:

 

[pandora]

I have to say I too am soooo proud of myself! A couple of years ago, I would not have given myself credit for anything even if I deserved it!

 

[pandora]

Two weeks no pain killers today!!!!

Unbeleivable..I am learning so much in this group and it helps to know that I am not alone in this disease of addictions as well. There motto is the end result must be due to a reason so there is a lot of self reflection and soul searching to assist us to realize just what it was that made us start abusing in the first place. In that respect..well I had to make another time line and that was emotional but worth it..sharing parts of that with the group this week. That should prove to be very interesting.

The amount of energy I am getting back is unbeleivable, keeping up with being gone for 8 hours a day and then to come home deal with ever day activities is hard. Some days I feel like I am on overload...but I am doing it. I make sure to try and go to bed at the proper hour. that is not to say I sleep right through as here I sit in the middle of the night after hours but I think I should be able to go back to sleep, I still feel tired and I know I am dreaming but I am not afraid to dream I just do not like it! Waking up to a pillow being help over your face in suffocation..really sucks. I am being triggered all over the place in this group but it is proving to be healing too. I think I am healing..in more ways than one. I am managing even with such a buzy pace..my headaches have lessened or at least have not gotten to the vomitting stage..so that is a blessing. I am taking motrin at least three times per day..uugghh!

I have to make a goal to get my teeth fixed in the new year and get glasses in the next month ( my wonderful puppy chewed those..lol) I think this will also help with my headache issues and the wicked rebounds have not happened since stopping, that is a godsend but before I get an ulcer from the motrin I need to take care of these problems. I actually have goals..Whoo Hoo. Have been taking better care of myself physically..eating better, put on eight pounds. I do not want to gain anymore so I am making healthier food choices too and have increased my water intake. It is a good change in so many ways. I just had to put myself first and I am still learning how to be my own friend. One day at a time. Next month I want to join the community centre to fill my time and get into a strengthening program as I have lost a lot of muscle because I was so house bound because of my back the last couple of years. Anywy..I am rambling.
Thank you all for our continued support.
OMG....OMG..I did it...I am doing it drug free!!!!!:clap::clap::clap:

 

[Deleted member 541]

Great job Pand.....Just keep moving forward, and keep your head up!!!!!

 

[skyp56]

Just stopping by to congratulate you on still fighting! Good Job, Pandora!

Hang in there!
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}

 

[Grama-Herc]

While I am not facing the same difficulty you are right now, I was shocked to see that we have the EXACT SAME GOALS ! ! !

Eyes, teeth, better food choices and a better body! Just goes to show you that we are all more alike than we
think.

We hide our heads in the sand when it comes to taking care of ourselfs in order to just get through the day.

Should we begin this journey together, once you get to a place where you can?

Especially the "bad body" issue

 

[pandora]

As soon as things settle down i do need to get a physical and have my teeth repaired badly..we can give each other a kick in the but when the time comes for all of this to happen..just have to get through the next couple of weeks first. Then the other physical things I have been negelcting have to go to the top of my list..we'll support each other together herc...What we cannot do alone we must do together!!!

 

[suzie q]

H.a.l.t.

Congrats girl!!!

It sounds as if you are on a natural high! When learning about my drug addiction, I found that our bodies actually do produce endorphines that are released by our brains that cause a "high". That is the feeling of happiness and peace or serenity that we are supposed to feel naturally. When we use drugs and are addicted to them, we have that normal process blocked until we stop using and it leaves our body.

I learned that when H.A.L.T. starts (hungry, angry, lonely, tired) my good feeling goes away. I must listen to myself when these symptoms happen and take care of myself. It actually helps me stay somewhat balanced until I am completely educated in staying clean.

Remember to take baby steps in your recovery. My experience has been to much, to fast overwhelms me and causes panic. Stay close to those who have the solution, not the problem.

Good luck and stay, one day at a time...