MVA Survived The Wreck But Mentally Not Ok With It

[babyblue]

It's been almost a week since I flipped my truck. I'm still dealing with some physical pain but the mental toll is the worst. I was the only vehicle involved and had no passengers. I can still picture it in my mind...being upside down in the snow. Still feel the panic of being trapped. Hear the footsteps of help coming. My room is my worst trigger because the color of my walls and curten make things the same color as being upside down. I've started shutting people out including my roommates. In a way I'm angry I walked away with no physical marks only mental ones. I don't feel like I can talk about it since all there is to show is a messed up truck. I feel like people will tell me its not OK to be this mentally skrewed up...but I am. Can anyone give me any advice.... Maybe.... Please...

 

[KwanYingirl]

Yeah. You had a traumatic experience . You'd have to work with a trauma therapist to find if you have acute stress disorder or PTSD. I hope for your sake it is an acute situation that can resolve with therapy ad that of cliche-time.

 

[Neverthesame]

@KwanYingirl is absolutely correct. It's a good idea to seek help sooner rather than later.

Dealing with what you are feeling, can go a long way to prevent the post traumatic stress you're experiencing from turning into the disorder.

What you are experiencing is perfectly normal after such an event. Talking with a professional, and letting these feelings out. Is the best thing you can do for yourself.

Bottling your feelings up, isn't going to do yourself any favours.

Just because you walked away without a scratch, doesn't mean it wasn't a f*cking scary life threatening event. You aren't being a wimp, if that's what you're worried about. (I'm glad you did walk away though. Always a good outcome to a vehicle rollover.)

 

[babyblue]

I'm worried there is no help where I live and I'll never find it.

 

[JackRJN]

Deal with it - the sooner the better. And wherever you live there are phones so you can call a helpline. There's also online counseling. And don't count out some of your roommates. I don't know if they are army room mates or oil drilling roommates but it seems you're in a macho-environment. I've been afraid to talk about my PTSD for a long time in the army (I'm in the reserves) but I wish I had done so earlier because the most common reaction when I finally did was 'that sucks for you - how can I help?'

 

[babyblue]

One of my roommates is ex Marine and has PTSD. I kinda in a way feel like my situation is minor compared to what he went through so that's why I'm lost about getting help. Until it happened to me I never thought something minor (compared to combat) could skrew someone up so bad. I've never been good at talking about my problems to people. The only one who knows how much hell is going through my head is an ex who was there when a friend was killed. He's the one that made it real how skrewed up I am. I thought oh a couple days everything will be fine.... Im far from fine.

 

[JackRJN]

PTSD-sufferers don't compare and rank each others experiences, and anyway, there's not some sort of absolute scale of traumatic experiences. To paraphrase and vary on Robert Heinlein: one man's traumatic experience is another man's belly laugh'. That may be an exaggeration, but I guess you get the point. The nature of the experience is not what matters, but the effect it had on you. So whatever this marine went through, that's not really important. Important is that you had an experience you have difficultes coping with, and you need help with that. And I don't think a rollover with a truck is a minor experience by the way.

 

[babyblue]

Yeah your right. I only said minor because I'm only mentally messed up and my truck is in the shop. No physical injury from it. But unfortunately the mental toll is way worse than any physical injury I think I could have gotten and still walked away.

 

[JackRJN]

"Only" mentally messed up...there are few physical wounds that last as long as untreated mental trauma. I hope you get help and that you will be able to shake this thing off!

 

[babyblue]

I keep trying to tell myself I'm fine but I ain't and don't know how to take it all. I'm only 22 and its alot right now

 

[KwanYingirl]

Call your doctor to get the name of a trauma therapist. Or call NAMI, the national alliance for mental illness. You're spinning your wheels which is a colossal waste of time. The sooner you get help, the shorter your recovery will be. In the meantime practice meditation. There are APPS for that and they are very useful. I get alternative healing arts like Reiki and acupuncture and practice yoga. You've got to Healy the body mind split that happens under severe stress. Keep us posted

 

[babyblue]

I'm not looking forward to this journey :(