This Time I Had The Gun

[sonicwhite]

So last night i was dreaming that I was in a building with an old friend.....There was a toy speed track that got messed up and I was being blamed for it.........The I noticed a lot more ppl where gathering in the building......A big screen movie theater type thing was on and i had an Iphone, I remember a gal asking me to kill her boyfriend. I shot him several times and as i walk out the door I was in a Mall but I had been shot too....I was struggling to get to the getaway car and when I was almost in the guy that I shot tried to pry the door open.....Some how I leaped from the car and I was on top of the mall. I could see cop cars all around and once the cops knew where I was they started shooting......Every bullet that hit me hurt a little but I was still able to move normal....I started to kill all the cops around me.......Not one survived.....I run to the building that had a secret door and I walk in and a Buddist Monk said can I help you? I said I need a place for christians to sit at and he showed me to the table.....A group of Christians gathered and we where talking about God.......



I started to talk to this very pretty gal about the Sacrifice God made.....Then me and her hook up.....



I wake up and my knee is killing me from laying in the same spot for hours......This dream has nothing to do with what I really feel and killing cops is a death sentence. I just don't understand. Did I tuck away the abuse of my dad and the jail for so long that it's now seeping out into my dreams.....Why am I going thru this........I need a therapist bad. But I just want to not dream at all. I'm tired of going to bed and hitting REM sleep so fast and my dreams last all night. I'm tired of all this.

 

[darrenS]

im sorry to hear you had such a horrible dream, i think trying to control your nightmares is one of the hardest things about ptsd. There are medications like Prazosin that they give to help, some find success with it , some dont. I was smoking marijuana as it worked at stopping my nightmares and felt it did help enormously in that regard. But other than those 2 i am not aware of any other meds that help with the nightmares.

Who knows why our dreams come out they way they do, i dont think anyone has a truthful answer or interpretation for that.

I would suggest if your not getting therapy , to start looking , and do some research about medications for ptsd , i personally do not find benefit in any of the meds they prescribe , but its different for everyone. I wish you the best on your journey and hope you can find some solace from your nighttime suffering

 

[Mirlat]

Maybe a cop in the dream represented an authority figure that you're supposed to trust but who, instead, let you down/became the enemy....... Once, years before my PTSD, I started having dreams where the devil kept showing up in my reality. I prayed sincerely and deeply for these dreams to stop. For almost 5 years after that, I couldn't remember any dreams. It's interesting that you brought God into your dream.