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[Esterio]

@Freedomfighter it's so interesting to me when you talk of your desire to tell th...

i'm ready to scream that story right the f_______ out of me. I have had all I can take of it.

 

[Esterio]

I agree. Baby steps. One story at a time.
Wow, even that story you glossed over there, I would love...

I hope to finish the story one day and i hope I enough strength to post it. The first time I tried to write it I got to trusting someone and I let them read the first part. I'm not sure what really happened. My first abuse I was a child and made to feel good and like I was special.I didn't know it was abuse until I was 11 or 12 I didn't understand. Well that guy propositioned me for sex. I felt completely traumatized again. so I'm not sure if I will but I would like to I think I could. it could be important what that start in life did to me and all the things it destroyed.

I agree. Baby steps. One story at a time.
Wow, even that story you glossed over there, I would love...

I told a lot to someone the other night and it triggered me to bad. so I am trying to not say so much

 

[Nevermore]

Si. I agree with keeping your own counsel and be careful who you tell.
I do relate to you. My first abuse was also as a child, and as part of it he asked me if I loved him and if I'd marry him. I agreed to both and spent many years in fear he would show up and I would have to marry him as I'd said I would.
I told the story once to a lover and it became obvious pretty quickly that this story was a turn on for him.
Nope. No way. Never again.
I never did get married funnily enough, never wanted to.
Thanks (I'm pretty sure) to a drunken middle aged man in the back of a dark garage when I was 11.
yes. Choose the right audience when you choose to speak!

 

[ladee]

You are very aware how raw you are feeling. That is a very good thing. Do you have any grounding techniques you can use?
You are welcome to PM me and we can just talk about stupid stuff to get you settled some.
No pressure. Do what is right for you.
Sending gentle hugs of support if you accept.

 

[Esterio]

Si. I agree with keeping your own counsel and be careful who you tell.
I do relate to you. My first...

i did get married to a women and what a mistake we never had a chance it was a big mistake. I think it was at a time when i was questioning my sexuality. I have been none sexual for many years now. I would like to be intimate with someone but I have a hard time letting anyone touch me. I don't know what it is but some people get turned on by abuse.. sick sick sick sick.
I will defiantly be care full if I decide to post my story

 

[Esterio]

You are very aware how raw you are feeling. That is a very good thing. Do you have any grounding techniqu...

how do you get to PM