Unfocused Mental Pain-do You Have It?

[Kim500]

Wishing you the best and hoping you will provide less of something that is already perhaps in abundance, replacing it's energy with some you-time and you'll likely be able to last, love and provide for a lot longer.

I wanted to express that to Debbet but couldn't find the words!! Thank you for saying it!!

 

[blue-Ocean]

Yes I do sometimes have what I call mushy brain and mind, like my mind is full of mushy and not making sense of what I am thinking, or as I sometimes call it "Marshmallow" feeling in my mind. This is because things can come back all over again, it's the same things over and over even if we are busy doing other normal everyday things. I guess even a thought from it can be a flash back as its a flash thought to our mind and we can only take so much of it before the mind feels mushy. I tend to lie down and read too it helps to distract my mind it sort of make other thoughts come. I have had PTSD for 20 years so have come to know the things that work for me.

 

[Kim500]

Yes, Kim I have and whereas previously people could not see this well of pain which I may still experience evenings and have previously done so regularly, I suspect they can see it now just looking at my face. Even if I try hard to make this not so.

I understand what you are saying about trying to maintain a "mask" to hide the pain you feel. Do you think that since it's becoming harder to hide the pain, maybe your body is saying enough is enough with the mask!!?? After all, it takes a huge amount of energy to hide our true feelings, and maybe our minds want us to use that energy towards our self-care and healing, not for hiding our true selves. The mind is so mysterious! Maybe it "fights" for self-acceptance because that's the relaxed and calm state it's supposed to be in, and when we go against ourselves by wearing masks(which gives ourselves the un-said message that we and our feelings are not good enough), our mind rebels! Maybe our minds are our friends!!?? Just some thoughts!!

Anyone have any thoughts on how the mind may work to help us? After all, it does repress traumatic memories so that we can survive!

 

[Kim500]

blue-Ocean, thank you so much for sharing your experience and explaining it in detail! When you mentioned that you guess even a thought from it can be a flashback, I remembered that Venusian mentioned flashbacks too! Here it is:

I think what you may be experiencing is a form of flashback. Flashbacks are not always visual, they can be auditory, emotional, any type of sensory flashback.

 

[Debbet]

Mental anguish is always here with me, like a low grade fever that spikes once in a while. Like when I am not busy or my resistance is down. I have learned not to stay so busy in an effort to stave off the "spikes"since that makes them much worse.

 

[Kim500]

Hi Debbet! Mental anguish is a good way to describe it! Thank you for describing what it's like for you, and sharing the patterns you've come to see about when it's worst,and your method to stave off the spikes! It's valuable and helpful information so thank you again!!

P.S. I like your new avatar! At least I'm thinking it's new because I don't remember seeing it before! *smiles 4 U*

 

[Debbet]

Thanks, the Avatar is a place near here where I lived when I was homeless, not many people get to live in such a lovely place. I just figured out how to upload an avatar so it is new. I was trying to find one of Charlie but the computer has hidden it away in cyberstorage and I can't find it. Any way it is a lovely picture and a beautiful place (very peaceful and safe) So i put it up instead.

 

[Kim500]

I'm very sorry you were homeless Debbet and I'm very happy that you aren't anymore! It honestly seems to me that God created that safe and lovely place for you when the world was made so that you would have a place of peaceful retreat when you needed it!