Wanting To "divorce" Almost All Of My Friends?.....

[Deleted member 29889]

Two nights ago, after having been very depressed and agoraphobic for days, I felt like a weight was lifted from my shoulders when I considered going "no-contact" with two friends.

Felt great.

Now, it's gone even further.

My best friends of six years (two people) are now on this list in my head of people to just let drop off the radar. I think it is because I am starting to view them as unreliable.

Honestly, I won't have anyone left to talk to except my therapist and psychiatrist.

Well, what if I feel okay with that?

I guess that's okay. Heck, I feel like I am on vacation since I decided to drop the first two friends. It boils down to feeling sick of hearing other people complain and sick of listening to their sh*t when I feel drained from listening to them.

I'm sick of people I can't be myself around. I keep my mouth shut when I have a different opinion so as to avoid conflict. One "friend" just assumes I agree with everything she says because I am not confrontational. Bye-bye to her. ;)

Well, if those folks give such a big damn about me they can do something to demonstrate that they give a crap. Please forgive the rant....I just feel like I want to get away from draining people and feel free.

 

[ladee]

And that is a very healthy thing to do.
I am also reaccessing some relationships.
Passive aggresive people make me nuts. I do not have the energy or brain cells to figure out the word play.
Those people are first on my list!
Yay for us! Making room for interesting people wth common interest!!

 

[trying2movefwd]

I can relate. Heck I would like a whole new start fresh with new friends and forget the old ones, but how can you make new friends when you just don't feel you can trust anyone?

 

[physicist13]

I've done a bit of this (cutting back on friends) and I would recommend it... especially if they are just making you feel worse

 

[Deleted member 29889]

Thanks y'all!

WARNING- This is a rant.


One person I might still stay in contact with by phone....if at all. Um....nah!

Haven't emailed one person for a couple of days. Doesn't seem to have set off any alarms with her....he, he, he. She must not miss me much!

I've thought about making a "clean break" with another person.....just send an email saying, "It is over. Can't take the stress anymore. Good bye and good luck." Then BLOCK, BLOCK, BLOCK everyone. Or just BLOCK with no explanation. One duo of friends would, I think, become quite burdensome in the not-too-distant future. Can't take care of them. Another friend wanted to go with me to visit a relative because she wanted a free vacation in the guise of helping support me emotionally on the trip, ha! Well, too bad, because I can't afford to pay for every single meal. Providing transit and accommodations is one thing, but I get a strong sense that her urgent volunteering to go with me is just her desire to get a free trip out of state, not out of the goodness of her heart. Plus, I can't walk on eggshells around her "issues" in addition to dealing with a sick relative. Screw that.


Making new friends is scary, but it's not as bad as feeling stuck as some sort of caretaker for the emotions of my current "friends." Sick of walking on eggshells. They can Damned well just take care of themselves. Hell, they survived just fine before I came along, as did I. I'm freaking done! I'm going to block them all starting right now!

Freedom.

Thanks for all the encouragement and support here. Thank god for this safe haven!

Have a wonderful day, my peeps! :)