What Are You Angry About?

[pandora]

Watching Dr.Phil;;;;HUGE flashback fro hell...I was living with them and i was on the phone with my Mom..My youth group leader was doing the dishes the phone was also in the kitchen....My Mom was SCREAMING, calling me names, screaming profanities. My youth group leader and her husband could hear they kept saying to me hang up...that is abuse........over and over. I was 15...this was new to me too my mother was not always like this, I do not think so anyway. her husband then walked over to me...took the phone from my hand and hung it up....His exact words..You can not expect more from a pig than a grunt..........UUUGGGGHHH, I was 15, i did not understand and i got lost in the cracks...i feel like if Dr.Phil was around 20 years ago...I would not be still learning to deal with this..I would be managing it and my son would have a more healthy mother..I am feeling.....anger!

 

[TLight]

Shiraz,
Your post awhile back about being angry at the media and how women are objectified in our society is right on.
I feel so scared and sad for young women growing up right now. Without the support of good parenting, they are going to disrespect themselves and let others do it too them too.........

It is soul killing. I'm angry that our culture is soul killing.

 

[LightTilDawn]

Im angry that I don't have answers, and when I do they are wrong.

:Hug_emoticon:Hugs to those who need them!

 

[tam]

I am angry that my husband has watched me deteriorate over the last 10 years after 3 Dr's told him I would not do well here. He also had us live in the house his father molested our 2 yr old daughter 12 years ago, Bad town, bad house...For this I am very angry.
Tam

 

[Kunoichi]

I'm angry that I got hurt
I'm angry that i let these people do this to me
I'm angry that I still let them impact my life
I'm angry that no one knows the truth about my abuser but ME!
I'm angry that there are so many freakin uncompassionate people
I'm angry that the ones who are supposed to care about me the most...don't
I'm angry that no one understands this or how to cure it!
I'm angry that I can't control everything around me
I'm angry that my boss screwed me over in so many ways
I'm angry that he stole 10k from me
I'm angry that he psychologically screwed with me
i'm angray that he manipulated me
I'm angry that he said he loved me and never meant it
I'm angry that he emotionally abused me
I'm angry that he still comes up in my mind
I'm angry that he still haunts my nightmares
I'm angry that I can't ever really express my anger
I'm angry that I was taught that my feelings are wrong (tho I know the truth now)
I'm angry for being angry..
I'm angry when i get numb
I'm angry for getting scared all the time
I'm angry at the anxiety attacks
I'm angry at not being able to be intimate with my husband due to this

thanks for the vent lol

 

[Anonymoose]

I'm still enraged about crimes committed against me throughout my life. I've had precious little recourse and may never see justice served. I'm so angry because there is nothing more that I can do about it. I'm angry because I have to live with disability while they live on money that belongs to me. I'm angry because I'm powerless over my situation. I'm angry because I couldn't protect myself. I'm angry because I've sustained irreparable harm and nothing can remedy that.

 

[lilil]

I'm angry my husband doesn't understand ptsd, nor wants to try. I'm angry I have to do it all alone. I'm angry I even have to deal with it. I'm angry that my mother didn't give a toss about me. I'm angry she didn't protect me.

I'm incredibly angry today especially. I wish I could pinpoint it, but I am angry and really hate everything right now.

 

[Deleted member 1606]

I'm with Void. I was tortured as a child and the suffering of child is a crime against the universe as far as I'm concerned. But in a more personal way, I'm angry that my perps stole my entire childhood from me and much of my adult life as well.

 

[Anonymoose]

I'm angry because every time I set a goal I move backward instead of forward. I end up wishing that I hadn't set one at all.

 

[ZAFF]

anger

i don't know if i am angry, but when i get triggers it becomes rage and i internilize it. it's not normal anger. but it angers me that i don't know why i get rage with such vile thoughts and then if i have sex i dissasociate. sometimes i dissascociate even when i'm not having sex. i'm numb. it angers me i go into these two different modes but i don't understand why, i don't understand how i got this way. it's been this way since i was about 5, i've always known a life like this. i am in therapy now and when triggers happen even though i don't understand what they are bits and opieces come back to memory and then rage sets in. my therapyst says i have ptsd with dissociation. i have no idea how i got this way. i know my father was violent at times, i know i don't have any child hood memories that are good. my therapist says it;s ok to be angry but i don't know why it is or how it comes or how i got to be this way since i've only known this way my whole life, i am 35 years old. i destroy my insides with this.sometimes i get angry when i have sex and i dissacocaite . i didn't know i was dissacociating untiil i described how it feels to be me to my therapyst. i don't understand why i have such anger and where it comes from. please excuse my spelling, i could spell to save my life.

 

[Darkhorse]

Anger

Im angry at seing a person where i goto groups on tuesday, he was never there before,,,,,, that ive havent seen for 5 years, that took way advantage of me when i went into phycosis.

im angry that he took advantage of me when i was really ill,

im angry when i was ill i didnt say no,

im angry he turned up at my group,

im so angry im gonna tell my therapist exactly why i didnt goto group the rest of this week, because i was shocked he was there, and im angry i couldnt say anything but walk away confused, red faced, and mixed up.

 

[Kunoichi]

I'm angry at judgemental people who claim to love but don't....it hurts :(