I don't feel affraid of death, I've been dead before and was brought back to life. What I fear is all the I have to get through to be dead again. I know I have some serious health problems, but I am not sure what they are. I am awaiting a doctor's appointment a week from now, and that appointment will JUST be to decide what Specialist(s) to send me to. I doubt my regular MD can do anything about what is medically troubling me, in fact she has chosen to do nothing about one thing that is wrong with me for anthoer 3 months at which time I shall get another Xray. In the meantime, the other problwm looks like it will require some kind of surgery. And that, of course, is causing me anxiety, because the surgery could uncover some other problem!