As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It's something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn't always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier.
What am I grateful for today?
I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night's sleep in my own bed. I didn't wake up with a hangover.
I am grateful to start my day with a fresh cup of coffee and cigarettes to smoke. These are two pleasures I can count on everyday.
I have genuine, trusting friendships I can count on too, if I just chose to pick up the phone.
I have a job that does more for me than just the bills.
I am grateful that I am not the person I used to be. I can feel demolished without further destroying myself.
I am grateful for finally being able to work from home starting tomorrow.
Grateful to have a husband that does not shame my bisexuality.
Grateful my sports team made the 2nd round of the Stanley Cup finals.
Grateful I am still standing and trying.