What Are You Grateful For Today?

[Iammyself]

Managed to get a very difficult and traumatic statement written...it's going to take awhile to manage the anxiety and fear...time for a walk and some meditation.

 

[Dynamic]

Truth

 

[Tinyflame]

Though I/ we could always use it, thankful for pause on 2nd job.

 

[Rose White]

@Iammyself sounds like a victory!

I am grateful for work.

 

[Iammyself]

That I can manage anxiety

 

[Iammyself]

Bed time

 

[Iammyself]

Making progress

 

[Iammyself]

Long hot shower.

 

[Dynamic]

Coffee

 

[Friday]

Dragon Balm.

OMFG.

I haven’t smoked pot -or ingested it in any other way- since 2000. Even though I live in a recreational state, there are federal jobs I haven’t (hadn’t?) given up the ghost for potentially working. That have a 10 year no-use policy.

Whelp. I’ve had Covid for the past couple weeks, was eyeballs deep in opiates to manage the pain / allow me to breathe… no fuss, no muss… off of those for the past week. Went back to work today. AND? My back seized up. All the muscles “splinting” (read: freezing in position attempting to “help” protect damaged organs from more harm) around my lungs, mostly along my spine/ribs, causing me to flop around like a fish, o2 sat in the shitter. Looking like a trip to the ER …BUT?

A housemate smeared this stuff all over the worst area, and it felt like tadpoles started swimming across my muscles (and looked a bit like some SciFi flick) as everywhere this stuff covered… stopped effing cramping and seizing up. So then we widened the area of effect, just a smidge. And wow. I haven’t breathed this deep in over 2 weeks.

Great stuff.

 

[Tinyflame]

Grace.

 

[Iammyself]

Minimal back pain.