What Did You Do For You Today???

[Let It Be]

Saturday is the day that I wash and clean the house. It was the day that I did the housecleaning when I was working, so still follow that schedule. I even decided to treat myself, so ordered a cheeseburger with fries, and went and picked it up. Just nice to get everything done, it is like the weekend is here!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I finished another book in a series I am reading.

 

[Britt.f7]

I started back in genealogy yesterday after a two year hiatus due to my depression.

 

[Chincho]

I finally gave in and bought myself a pair of larger pants.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm going to go to bed early and hope that sleeping a little extra will help with my tiredness.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I've been feeling a little anxious and tense today. I made myself sit down and focus on my grounding techniques and practice a few. And even though I don't like grocery shopping I made myself go with my parents when they went. I knew the alternative was staying home feeling bad and going down the rabbit hole.

When I'm able to I like to make better and more productive choices. Doing the things I don't always feel like doing are sometimes the most important things I do for myself. Even if they're small things like going to the grocery store.

 

[Britt.f7]

@BlackbirdRising I feel the same way. Sometimes just doing something, even if it isn't something we like, can bring more positive results on the inside. I push myself sometimes to get out, or, if I'm out for my therapy, I will stop at the grocery store or other errands that I wouldn't normally do. I feel more accomplished. Seems silly, but it's true.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Seems silly, but it's true.

I don't think it's silly. We struggle with sometimes basic things. It requires doing something different than doing our part of what I call going down the rabbit hole. I know for myself if I'm struggling and I stay home alone I will obsess and feel worse and worse. So even if it's "just grocery shopping" what the choice actually is for me is choosing to at least try to not go there in order to spare myself anxiety.

Today what I did for myself was put my pride aside and just talk and really open up to my new therapist about the madness I was feeling. I'm not sure I was even making much sense at first. As a result of doing this she saw me exactly where I was and was able to help me in the way I really needed her to. In a way I normally might be too proud to admit I needed her to. And now for the first time since Friday or Saturday I feel more calm and relaxed than I've felt in days. I'm so relieved I decided to get out of my own way and ask for and get and really receive the help I was really needing so badly.

 

[Britt.f7]

@BlackbirdRising I think things silly, for lack of a better word, those things that I know most people can do that I am having a hard time with, like showering. I hope it doesn't sound demeaning to you because it is not meant to be.

I'm glad you opened up to your new therapist. Sometimes it really is just us standing in our way of healing. Sometimes we just have to move aside and let it happen. I've been doing more of that lately and I have to admit, it feels good.

 

[Britt.f7]

I bought a new pair of jeans, only own one pair and the zipper is broken(it closes), went to lunch with my sister(she treated), and ran on some errands with her.

 

[Britt.f7]

I bought an iced drink from Taco Bell. I've gotten my fourteen year old hooked on them too.

 

[Let It Be]

With it being Saturday, is the day that I clean and go through my house, before I go to the store. I even put on the flannel sheets as the evenings are getting so much cooler. When I went to the store, I did buy some pistachio ice cream, my favorite, just to treat myself!