What Did You Do For You Today???

[ms spock]

I rang a crisis line.

 

[Britt.f7]

I went to the library and checked out two books, simply because I seem to be reading them fairly quickly. In part to keep my mind occupied.

 

[Let It Be]

I got busy and went through my closet and organized my clothes and my shoes. I then went to the store and bought me some pj's that I have been looking at. I have been walking by them for some time, but this time, I didn't and I forced myself to try them on.

Don't know why, probably from my past, but shopping just exhausts me. It's hard for me to spend money on myself for new clothes, etc.

 

[ms spock]

I feel proud of myself for going out today because it really wasn't easy. Despite feeling so much and being so low I pulled it together and went to class today. I had an okay day. I managed okay throughout the day.

I had very little sleep last night and work at 5am with a high level of anxiety. I really struggled this morning. I am only in the second week of going back on the medication so some of this might be to do with that. It will be good to sort it out tomorrow.

 

[Britt.f7]

Actually a couple weeks ago, but I decorated my living room the way I wanted it to look. New furniture to compliment my older pieces in the room. I took the last of my inheritance, which had been used over time to pay for my mortgage, and bought a couch and chair. It was a bit selfish, I know, but I know my mom would have liked this. Plus, I sit in the living room the majority of the time. It was time it was a place I could actually feel good.

Some guilt but not too much.

 

[Let It Be]

I was dripping wet from mowing the yard yesterday, so humid, so today I rest!

I did walk around the lake since I haven't done that in a long time, that felt so good. It just helps me in so many ways to go there and walk off anything that is going on within me.

 

[NIKI]

I did nothing for myself today. I don't deserve anything today. People tell me I am bad and I believe them. It's true.

 

[amethist]

Niki look in the mirror and repeat after me.

I am a good person, I am a nice person and what anyone else thinks of me does not count. Its what I think that counts and it is not what other people think. They are all wrong.

Amethist

 

[amethist]

I gave an old school friend my phone number.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I made coffee for myself and I am wearing a new shirt. I hope to get my hair dyed today. I am reading again, what a great distraction from my grief.

 

[ms spock]

I did some mindfulness meditation this morning, first thing. I plan on going for a walk shortly.

 

[ms spock]

I am having reasonable thinking today in my head. This comes from self monitoring and from challenging my thinking.

I did mindful meditation this morning, spent a couple of hours on the internet, went for a walk for an hour, ate breakfast, washed up, thought things through reasonably, made an appointment to have a student do my hair at the TAFE, tided up, threw out a few things and generally I am managing much better.

Shortly I will get dressed and go and mind the art gallery and do some work there, after that I will go to Tai Chi.