What I Hate The Most About Ptsd

[kdblossom]

I hate that I can't just pick up the phone and call my 89 year old Grandfather...

 

[krikkit]

I hate that I am always on edge that someone may see me melt down and distance themselves from me. I hate that I no longer feel any emotion over things I used to enjoy - art, hiking, writing ...

I hate that my life's plans had to change. I was going to graduate college, join the Peace Corps and then donate a kidney. I had all of this planned out, scheduled, and ready to go. Now I need to focus on being able to care for myself and going out in public. I feel like it was all on track, and everything was going to go just the way I planned. I also hate that I beat myself up like that when anything could have upset my plans.

I hate that sometimes old friends will say "You were the smartest one in class! It's so weird you're the only one who didn't graduate college!" and I have to force a laugh and say "Yeah, some things came up" because I am too afraid to tell them.

 

[Red Feather]

That it separated me from my children. :cry:

 

[Ice_Fire]

That I/we are paying for what has happened to us. That I'm feeling s#1t whilst my parents live like nothing ever happened! :mad:

That and the anxiety and not being able to feel 'normal', socialise etc

 

[Chincho]

That it cost me some friends, and it turned me into a person who spends her days mostly alone.

 

[Red Feather]

I also hate that it makes me shake during a performance.

 

[Tinyflame]

I think that's amazing Nadia. :)

I have no incilination (or talent) for such a thing. :) :tup:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I hate that I am emotionally numb. I cannot feel deeply. I can only feel alittle. I want to feel all of my feelings so I can feel the good ones too.

 

[iMPACTt43w0r1d]

I hate being viewed as a psycho...

 

[Mary Burgess]

I hate that PTSD has affected my friendships and love life. I hate that it took over my adult years. I hate that it also messed up some of my friends' lives, in that they have it, too.

 

[Muzikluvr]

I hate that PTSD made me more vulnerable to abusers; and less acceptable to sympathetic witnesses.

 

[Chadderbox]

I hate the uncertainty as to whether it is Ptsd or normal ,and not knowing the difference.

I try to tell myself that what happened can happen to anyone. PTSD is your body trying to protect you. would you be normal if it didnt try to keep you from going through something bad again? youd probably be a fool who would end badly. Im learning that the nicer I am to myself on this issue the better I feel. If I put myself down for having ptsd I get depressed ect.. Now I am like its ok, I need help millions of other people do to.
I dont thank myself for having ptsd, but Its hard to look at oneself in a positive manner. All therapists say that your body goes where the mind goes, and the harder I am on myself the longer recovery will be.