What I Hate The Most About Ptsd

[Beverly G.]

And one more think I really hate when people tell me to pray through it and I will be OK.

 

[Dethuan]

I really hate the nightmares, don't want to sleep over anywhere else because I'm afraid I might wake up screaming. And afraid that if i ever try to explain I'll only get judged or pitied.
Hate the paranoid part of me saying "Maybe he's lying" "They don't care about you" "Your better off on your own they'll only stab you in the back"

The blind anger at myself and people around me for no apparent reason that makes sense afterward.
Pushing myself too far because I think I deserve worse than I'm getting.
The ache's, the shakes, crying for no reason and not feeling better.
I hate my life.

 

[angel2write]

And one more think I really hate when people tell me to pray through it and I will be OK.

Amen to THAT.

 

[justhere]

I hate the constant fear...feels like I'm in a pool drowning. My lungs, heart and everything is going to burst. Like Beverly said, I can't even be me. Although I know I'll never be the old me, but I'm can't act/talk the way I'm thinking. It just comes out extremely hateful.

 

[justhere]

Like I'm in prison...my own mind.

 

[Barberian]

I haven't been able to read this thread, too many triggers.

What I hate the most about PTSD - is that it exists.

 

[Dethuan]

Ptsd exists because people are what they are <Monsters>.
I wish life was just another game of Skyrim at least there I get a sword.

 

[CaringMomma]

((((((Barberian, Dethuan))))))))))

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hi angel.
I say I will second that. I have had more than my fair share of being preached at. It is a pet peeve. Not trying to get off topic.

 

[Nadege]

The worst thing about PTSD for me is that it changed the way I view life. Not so much the PTSD itself I guess, but the original event did so. I do not have faith in people - not meaning that they are bad, but that they are pretty powerless. No stock can be put in feelings. No stock can be put in promises. Nothing is lasting, nothing is secure, nothing is permanent. People will betray not only you but themselves, and be disgusted with themselves for it... but not for long - new emotions will take over.

I view life now as a sequence of illogical events. The wind blows. The tree grows. The stone rolls of a hill on my head and kills me. Oh well, there are plenty of other people on this earth.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I hate and loathe the anxiety. I have been getting it every day. It makes me feel less than and not quite up to doing things I need to do in order to function. I will have to drive on Monday and I am stressing over it even though I haven't had anxiety driving the last few times. I have anxiety for tommorow and Friday for my husbands medical tests even though I packed a bag of stuff to do. I will have a cab to take us and to bring us home. I am glad for that.

I am doing amazing in spite of the anxiety. I am getting things done. I am functioning. I am up to it, I just do not feel like I am up to it. It has been this way for a very long time now. I cannot find the fears that are causing it. I cannot find the root cause. I thank God for anxiety meds. They really help. Hopefully the emdr will help. I have that on MONday. That is when I get to drive. I can't wait. I hope it is soothing for me and helps to remove the anxiety. I am really crossing my fingers on this one. I hate the anxiety. I really hate it. I want to feel normal. I feel good without it. Things are alot easier. Great thread.

 

[KP the nut]

I hate the fact that I can go from calm and relaxed to triggered, unable to breathe and in a panic in the blink of an eye.