What I Hate The Most About Ptsd

[Chadderbox]

Hypervigilance, its so exhausting, as hard as I try it just won't go away!
Sleep disturbance & Medication tiredness, reducing dose soon & hoping it will make a difference

Just remember that as you reduce the medication your body will go through withdrawals and exarcebate symptoms. Be strong. I weaned off slowly over months half as fast as recommended.

 

[Chadderbox]

I hate all of the above + the fact that I cant have sugary things, or if I dont keep a full stomach my anxiety goes through the roof.
I hate that any planned event seems like a chore, a reason to panic.

 

[krikkit]

I hate myself and every molecule in my body for being susceptible to this illness. And I know I shouldn't. I hate that, too.

 

[Red Feather]

I think that's amazing Nadia. :) :tup:

Thank you Junebug. I still have to figure this one out. :oops:

 

[Tinyflame]

Your performing, Nadia! So you were shaky, but you did it! :tup: :)

 

[Mary Burgess]

Yeah!! You did it, Nadia!!
Right now, I have to count my blessings, because even though I was diagnosed last week, I managed to find a FANTASTIC therapist, this website for me to come to when I feel like the rope is getting shorter, and a new job that will be a gazillion times less stressful....release from a difficult relationship, a little time to myself...
I do have a heart of gratitude, so I guess that moves to another topic......
(((((hugs))))))

 

[Ice_Fire]

I'm so happy for you Mary.

 

[iMPACTt43w0r1d]

I hate when you break down in public...Its even worse in public because everyone sees and judges me...

 

[ColoradoSkye]

The utter lack of self trust..
The battle fierce battle fighting agoraphobia so that it won't win
The destruction of my self worth
the dysfunctional relationships
The fear of intimacy
The self loathing over the seemingly irrational fears
The utter embarassment of a public panic attack
The frustration that I can't get on top of all this and just live my damn life
The anger that I can't will, bargin, pray, stiff upper lip, plow on through, make this all go away

 

[Kaii]

I hate:

Feeling like I'm "crazy".

Being out in public and worrying that strange men are following me around, going to follow me out to my car and hurt me.

People standing too close to me.

Feeling like I "can't escape" when there are too many people around.

Forgetting things all the time.

Feeling like no one understands.

 

[toukon]

I hate feeling like I'll never be me again, lying to my family, pretending everything is okay when I feel like I'm falling apart, being afraid to go shopping, being afraid of thunder or any loud noise, fear of hitting someone because they got behind me without me knowing....I just hate PTSD! I hate that I work as a counselor but know that I'm a fake.

 

[kdblossom]

I hate that moving is such a big deal!