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What Images, Memories, Or Thoughts Bring You Comfort?

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The smell of homemade bread. The taste of it, with home churned butter on it. The sight of a fresh made pie in the window sill to cool. The sound of children laughing. A hug from a person who really cares.

Off to stand under a waterfall (take a shower) and listen to the loons in the morning mist (a CD).
 
teddy and spoon.webp

http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/articles/written-by-christine/the-spoon-theory/

I'd like to introduce you to Mikel, the teddy bear and a reminder of the spoon theory. If you read that link, you'll know what I'm talking about in relation to things that bring me comfort. It reminds me to not waste a spoon. They are precious. I sprayed Mikel with a perfume called Japanese cherry blossom. They are going to church with me today, as well as a copy of the spoon theory. That way when someone asks about the teddy, I can show them and not have to try and speak.
 
Sounds too mushy to be true, swear it is true. I remember the first time I saw every, single one of my 4 children. That started because my eldest was born with no life, he shouldn't BE here, long story. I didn't see him until Neo Natal Intensive Care Unit. Anyway, made an in-my-head picture of all of them, first-ever time I saw them. They do not know this, no.

My husband. He's big and comforting. I'm tall, can still fit neatly under his arm and kind of cuddle up to his chest. It keeps an awful lot of the dark, creepies away when you have someone like that in your head, much less your living room.
 
I didn't see him until Neo Natal Intensive Care Unit.

That was my first son. I got to hold him for a minute and they whisked him away. When they finally wheeled me to the neo unit, I cried when I saw him. They must have thought I was nuts when, with my second son, the nurses were cleaning him up, measuring him, etc., when they asked if I wanted to hold them. I asked them if they were done. I didn't want them to take him away.
 
When I want to ward off possible unpleasant dreams, I try to concentrate, as I'm falling asleep, on what it would be like to watch a herd of wild horses galloping over a hill at sunset. I see them in all their colours, I hear their hooves and whinnies and snorts. I smell their fur and sweat. I feel the vibration of their hooves on the ground. Never once have I ended up dreaming about horses, but my dreams are usually pleasant when I do this.
 
The other night, I began to have a craving for this meal, that my mother made. I kept trying to talk myself out of it, because I would need to go to the store to get all the ingredients for it.

I gave in, and went and got the tuna, the mushroom soup, the eggs, the chow mein noodles. I then came home and boiled the eggs, and kept wondering why I was doing it, even though eating it, gave me such comfort.

The next night I would be talking to my cousin about my mother, but at the time, I didn't know that. It was like a sign from my mother and I was eating a meal, that came from her!
 
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