What Images, Memories, Or Thoughts Bring You Comfort?

[Deleted member 12723]

Going on picnics with my family in my younger days. That was so much fun.

 

[anni]

It's tough to remain negative, or paniced, or anxious if you replay some of those moments from the past. God knows we're REALLY good at the whole letting-our-imaginations-run-amuck things. Ok, we're awesome at it, the problem being that it always, always has a negative spin which always, always inserts us into that STUPID loop. I've been at this awhile, seriously long enough to get annoyed with that *!#@!! loop. You get tired of your head GOING there, to the bad stuff. Like there's not enough bad stuff to replay, it helpfully invents some, thanks!

Nice to GIVE the head something to get ahold of, if it insists on looping like that. The time I first saw my eldest son is great- it has all the pathos the PTSD just loves to snack on but it ends well. It'd been an emergency C, in the UK. I didn't get to see him at ALL, was in a private room myself, forget why, except they were keeping an eye on me also ( so much for the lack of good care in the UK, they were amazing ). 2 giggling nurses showed up at 3 am with a wheel chair, acting like a SWAT team breaking our a prisoner, did I want to go see my baby? Bundled me, with those staples from hip to hip ( it was an EMERGENCY C, swear the surgeon must have used a samori sword ), bouncing down the hall at a dead run to the incubator. Hysterical even 32 years later. He was SOOOO skinny, on his stomach, picked the teeny head up an inch and friggin glared at me, not lying. One of the nurses I guess thought the moment would be spoiled for me by my baby shooting me SUCH a look, said she thought he probably had a headache from being squeezed for so long, hence the glare. Oh Lord, I thought my staples would pop, got lightheaded started laughing so hard. Kid almost died, laying there with a tube in his nose, still has the stuffing to glare at me, for all the world like I did this to him. Newborn lifting his head? I should have been worried, what a wierd kid. In those days, you weren't allowed to touch them when they were in those incubators, so it was tough having to leave him, get trundled back by those 2 hysterical nurses.


i've always wanted to find them, buy each of them a pony.

 

[safenow]

I'm a person who needs fresh air. I don't just want it, I need it. Not indoor air, but real, live, outdoor type air. One time I was in a mental hospital, and back then you were not allowed outside. So all you ever breathed was canned air. That stuff that floats around when there are no windows open.

I got to go outside for the length of time it takes a person to smoke a cigarette. The nurse who allowed me with her while she had a smoke was so sweet. Here I was spinning around in circles with my arms up in the air, breathing deeply, and she had this big grin on her face. That smile told me she understood I was just happy.

I tend to scare people when I'm happy. Unless they know me. LOL.

 

[saffy]

I've never been to the sea

Hopefully one day you will :) :hug:

Best wishes
Saffy :)

 

[MagiLisu]

Just reminded myself replying to another thread.

The disney film The Little Mermaid, Sebastian from The Little Mermaid and the song 'Under the Sea'

 

[Britt.f7]

you weren't allowed to touch them when they were in those incubators,

I was able to touch my son through the incubator, but I had stroked him and some of the monitors went off. The nurse snapped at me that that wasn't good for him. I think I just about burst into tears. Now they know that touch is good for them and I'd like to go back and slap that nurse.

Then, the next afternoon I got a nice nurse. She saw he hadn't been taking any nourishment from the bottle, despite it being my breast milk. If he continued to do so they wouldn't let him out of the NICU or go home. So she snuck him down to my room that evening and helped me breast feed him. He took right to that and ate like a champ. I was sooo lucky.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I used to collect all the colors of geraniums. I had quite the collection. It broke my heart when I had to move to the mountains and it was too cold for them. I loved living on our little farm. It was a mistake moving away from there.

 

[Britt.f7]

My year of living in South Carolina.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Pushing my children on the tire swing in our front yard. They loved it.

 

[Changing4Best]

When I was a kid, there was this old country store that was part of an apple orchard. They had a cider mill. It was the neatest place! They sold all kinds of toys and things of interest (nothing that required batteries), but also tools and things for farmers too. They had penny candy, you could pick and choose which ones you liked and not choose which ones you didn't. They sold rabbit skins, which were so soft and cuddly. We could not have a pet, so this was something most special to us. Also, they sold me this toy that I loved. I had a thing for cows, loved them so much, also loved milk. And there was this little round box that you could turn up-side-down, then right-side-up and it would moo like a cow! I couldn't make it moo enough... it was so much fun! The store sold home-made baked goods too. And later on they had a little restaurant as well.

Out back was a boutique, with beads and fashions. When we were teens we frequented it and bought all kinds of unique cloths and things.

There were other stores too, that were all part of the country theme. The place was such an adventure!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Sitting on the sand in front of the ocean with my eyes closed and soaking up the warm sun and listening to the sounds of the waves and the seagulls. So relaxing. I loved it. My husband would be off with the kids looking for cool rocks and sea shells. It was so peaceful.

 

[Changing4Best]

That reminds me of the sunsets by the sea that I used to so enjoy! I am sun sensitive, so I cannot be out there in the heat of the day: sunburn! But at sunset, I never got burned. And the colors, oh! So beautiful... it was like each time the sun would set, God was painting a very unique painting. No two were ever alike, yet they were ALL beautiful. This was on Clearwater Beach, Florida, USA. My friend and I would walk by the water's edge for a mile and then walk back in our bare feet, just getting our toes wet... and we'd watch the whole thing until the winds started, they always did after the sun was well past down but still reflecting up into the sky some.