What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Tinyflame]

Hey 6 months to Christmas Day

 

[Friday]

Hey 6 months to Christmas Day

Christmas in the summer is a special delight.

 

[Givrali]

Why just why I can have a rest ?

 

[Tinyflame]

Christmas in the summer

Did it once.

 

[Tinyflame]

Surprised to see my friend who I was avoiding seeing as I assumed he was avoiding me, meant to sneak in and drop something off invisibly. So happy he looked and felt so much better! I think he might feel better than I do lol. I'm too tired to understand, but I feel in the way or a dead weight/ annoyance. Nonetheless, he laughed and smiled and I thought I am a good friend because I'm genuinely just glad for that for his sake and just for his wellbeing and happiness. He did a lot for me and may fear more is expected. Or maybe some or all or none of the above. I know I feel awkward or like a stranger when I don't see someone for a while, a visual thing. Did it with my dad as a kid too, though we communicated.

I guess I feel like a bit of a ghost in life, but now I guess I'm just resigned indifferently to it. I suppose if I am burdensome I should just stop reaching out. Because just because you hope something is helpful doesn't mean it is, nor is wanted. He still did a lot for me and my relatives and even once called me family. Maybe he feels differently now, and/or I'm not sure what a family is supposed to be?

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

Tiredness. Exhaustion

 

[Shaylee]

Ice cream. Don’t have but it is on my brain for some reason.

 

[Tinyflame]

Feel kind of bad @Darkness Reborn . I ate a popsicle, a creamsicle and a revel. I could have shared.

 

[Shaylee]

nice! Glad you had some for me

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes @Darkness Reborn probably on average more than a whole neighbourhood's worth of kids have!

Once made the mistake of teaching the dog the chiming ice cream truck is here..

 

[Friday]

My abusive asshole exhusband is still tormenting my kid.

 

[Tinyflame]

God almighty @Friday .

Thinking of changing my username. Flame is snuffed out lol.

ETA, I've never been good expressing things for others in words, nor my own thoughts and feelings.
I was reminded today of something I forgot end of last week/ this weekend, that I haven't forgotten in over 40 (?) years. The only other thing is Remembrance Day, and only forgot that once. Silly to other people I know, a small thing to others but not small to me, important to me, which is why I honored it for years. I guess I have to accept my life is unanchored, I am unanchored. I am questioning a lot of what I thought was true but maybe I was just wrong. Either I was correct and it's just a temptation or I am just stupid and a fool.