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Surrounded by…
clean, dry, cold air (I can breathe!);
snow & sunshine;
humming birds & crows;
cat curled up on a pillow in the sun;
me’self moving freely or blissed out under blankets energy UP;
cold sparkling apple cider & warm soup;
money in the bank but not working today;
…life is pretty damn amazing in this moment.
Almost no physical pain, blissfully able to breathe, I know it’s a temporary thing (being in a climate that agrees with me & makes me happy
) but I forget just how much the stress of being in a climate that doesn’t affects all. the. things. Even though I know it intellectually. It’s just been sooooooo damn long since it was either a) something I could moderate effectively by having command over both my living space and my time spent elsewhere or b) my normal to live somewhere that I wasn’t made worse simply by being there. Like knowing a million dollars exists is different from having a million dollars.
I very much doubt my SUDS would always be this low in weather like this, and maybe half of the OMFG I FEEL AMAZING is in contrast to how shite I feel, but? Relief might be euphoric, but normal is the goal to shift.
It costs serious money to live well in the cold… so the next step is moving somewhere warm (tropics) & vacationing in the cold. Whether that’s the last step, or step 2 is moving to somewhere with both (warm/cold)? IDFK.
It’s good to be reminded that my bullheaded pursuit of moving to a climate that doesn’t hate me? Is well founded. For days like this.
