What Type Of Therapy Focuses On Building?

[Anarchy]

Hope you were able to get your weight and other functions back to where you want them to be.

If you are clear of meds, it's worth staying that way. I know people and there are members here, for whom the loss of function has been permenant.

Did you get a chance to find the mindful way through depression audio book on YouTube? You might need to try a few times as it keeps getting taken down over copyright, and people keep putting it up again. Download the whole thing when you find it ( you can get YouTube downloaders as browser plugins)
Also the paper by shotter, in the thread I tagged you in?

 

[Klo]

Hope you were able to get your weight and other functions back to where you want them to be.

If you are...

Yes I have the stuff you posted saved for when I feel up to it. I appreciate you taking the time to post it all. I've just been feeling out of sorts lately. I know I will get to it eventually, though. Thank you.

 

[Calling on Angels]

Hi. It sounds to me that you are too scared to really feel alive. There is no treatment that can work on rebuilding if you don't want to acknowledge the desire to have a life. I know alot about depression and often pull myself out of the bottom of the dark pit also. Sometimes all I can do is throw a pillow in to provide self love and compassion. You must try and take a small 1st step. It is like every part of you, even the parts that carry the hurt, need to be willing to take a small step. If you love your Dog (mine is right here next to me) volunteer to take dog from shelters out to play once a day. You must take a small step. Mindfulness, self compassion and a small step of action to help you begin to build trust IN YOURSELF to keep yourself safe in the outside world. You are not living n ow, just exsisting.. I know you are angry and scared but please take a small step. BTW, I love Brainspotting. It comes out of the EMDR community and is (in my opinion ) better.

 

[Tinyflame]

@Klo , I now use n e-vape (miraculous :notworthy: :tup: ). Have you looked at the possible connection of nicotine use/ dopamine & adhd? I found it looking to help/understand/ not harm for someone else, it may play a role for you?

take a small step..begin to build trust IN YOURSELF to keep yourself safe in the outside world...

I totally agree with the above.^^.

But you know what I think I've come to understand after a lifetime with ptsd @Calling on Angels , is that (for me, personally), I actually need help- other sources than myself- to both overcome the fear & to keep myself safe in the outside world (both from others & myself). To learn how to, but also because I actually need it. I believe (just for me) having never realized or acknowledged that fact, & trying to do it by myself since a child, has contributed to victimization, trauma, & suicidal ideation.

 

[Sandstone]

You must try and take a small 1st step........volunteer to take dog from shelters out to play once a day.

I just want to say to @Klo that sounds to me like a massive huge enormous step, so if you feel as overwhelmed by it as I would, you aren't alone. My FIRST step might be walking my dog before it gets dark, so I take the slight risk of meeting someone else. Maybe.

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh ha, no wonder I walk the dog mostly in the night. :)

 

[anonymous]

I haven't read all the answers but I found DBT helped this as it helps with identity. It wouldn't work if someone constructed these things for you as it would be a false identity. It rather needs to be a process of you slowly identifying yourself and then developing these things. I found CBT to break me down more when I was in that place, I was too fragile. I think that was one of the things that they identified when DBT was created. That CBT was too much for some. And I found talk therapy helpful too as it allowed me space to find my own thoughts and feelings. Something I wasn't allowed as a child.

 

[anonymous]

Actually I just wanted to add that I cannot put into words how bad CBT was for this for me. I needed space. I needed to find a me. My me had been squashed every time it tried to show itself. I hope you find your me.

 

[Klo]

Actually I just wanted to add that I cannot put into words how bad CBT was for this for me. I needed space. I needed to find a me. My me had been squashed every time it tried to show itself. I hope you find your me.

I've tried some CBT exercises and I'm not sure I really understand how they're supposed to work. One exercise had me study a leaf for a while and notice all of the different things about the leaf. So after about 20 minutes I felt like I still didn't know or understand myself anymore, but I had really gotten to know this dead leaf in the back yard. It was just kind of funny TBH.

 

[anonymous]

Hahahaha!

 

[ninja]

Maybe see if you can get your hands on a semi-cool-looking mandala coloring book (kaleidoscopes are kinda neat as well) and a set of colored pencils or markers or pens or crayons? I thought it was a "childish" activity and resisted for awhile but finally gave in as I realized it could help pass some of the minutes during particularly distressing time periods.

 

[Tinyflame]

Or painting or sketching @Ninja? (For those who don't like to color within the lines. :) )