When I Get Angry Or Upset I Punch Myself

[Srain]

Only thing I can think of is that was the treatment dished out to you as a child when there was no choice. What you needed was a lot of hugs and love.

I always wondered where it started from and after reading this I realized it started from the picking of my skin, which I did plenty of before I was given my first real knife. It didn't take me long. Thank you Lizio.

Angel2write, never mean comments. (((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))

 

[quack]

guess we missed mine??

 

[whips]

I have the same problem, I'm an iraq vet with alot of issues, and my ptsd runs my life. I don't leave my house unless I need to buy food, and whenever I get overloaded, or stressed out to the point where I can't handle it anymore I hit my head against walls, or the door or my fists.

I don't know why I'm doing this, and I'm having a difficult time dealing with all of this, it's not quite daily, but 3x a week on average, mostly when I first wake up.

I made an appt at the va, but it will be a couple of months before I'm seen. What can I do to prevent this from being my initial response to stress?

Things have been escalating lately, and the only change is a friend from my unit in Iraq is staying on my couch, and it could be possible that having a constant connection to the war is causing the increase of stress.

I have no real coping mechanisms, and I'm using cannabis for ptsd medication, but sometimes I have an episode and I won't allow myself to medicate or do anything to feel better.

<Edited for basic grammar by KP the nut>

 

[EloiseLandau]

Punch myself too. Sometimes hard enough to leave a bruise on my face.

 

[KvE]

My two things have always been cutting and punching. It was a joke when I was a kid. They called me hamburger hands because I would beat the wall until my hand was bruised and swollen and broken. I am not sure why they thought my hands looked like hamburgers cause I didn't and it only made me more angry. I think that is part of why I started cutting even more and punching less. It got really bad at one point until I was 17/18 and I am not sure what really changed. I started drinking more and cutting less. Than more drugs than drinking. Then stopped drugs went back to drinking and cutting and that's where I am now. Not as bad now. I don't cut nearly as often as I use to only when things just get way to much.

 

[Anna]

Yes. If I get triggered sometimes I will attempt to pull my hair out or punch myself. I even once hit my head against the wall. Normally I can control my anger and emotions very well, but if someone manages to press my buttons then I lash out at myself. :(

 

[megnut]

I have had an obsession for years about putting my head through glass. Mostly windows. Don't know why it had to be glass... maybe seeing it break over my head was the clearest expression of my inner pain. I have done a lot of head banging over the years, on floors, walls, filing cabinets... all in the name of wanting to knock myself out probably so as not to be concious and have to experience my turmoil. I have also cut and hit my leg. I do loathe my body and want to abuse it. I was raised in a home where my body was ridiculed. I do not know if I will ever totally accept it. I avoid taking a shower until I really stink because I cannot bear to see my naked body or take care of it.

 

[depressedjenn]

When I was in third grade I tried to cut my wrist. I still have a scar from it. I knew what was happening to me didnt seem right and I wanted to die, I do remember that. Now when I get really really angry I go and hit my pillow over and over..

 

[cuppycakes1975]

Hi there , yes I do this , my self harm is everyday I cut myself and cratch and punch my face and ribs and my stomach , also I pull my hair out and slap my face and scratch it , mine started after the abduction and rape, it's very hard to deal with day to day , and welcome to the forum and always here if anybody needs to chat.

 

[Tyler Roberts]

Hi Vke,

Self-harm is a common reaction to stress. There are several posts on this very topic, with...

Why harm yourself, not saying that I don't harm my self but I do try not to.

 

[lolololol]

i just bashed my head into my 37" flat screen about 6 times and then punched it until i could feel the glass going inside me. I was diagnosed by a doctor for having PTSD and Chronic Depression. i calmed down after and cleaned my room and everything i broke. my head is bruised now and i felt a little blood. i feel numb now. still standing though. i wish we had a button to turn it off

 

[Elwood]

I'm not sure I fully fit in here.
Well I tried looking this up but when I get really angry I sort of slap my legs mostly left leg and sometimes yeah I get a bruise for a few days but that's all as I'm just angry and annoyed. I don't hurt myself any other way at all, and don't have thoughts about hurting myself as I'd really rather not but the only person who ever saw me do it was my ex fiancé ( no it's not the reason we split) but I feel embarrassed but no one else not even family know. I thought maybe there's something wrong :/ I don't do it all the time just when I'm really angry at something.