Why Did You Choose That Username And/Or That Avatar (Or No Avatar At All)?

[NarcSis]

My call sign at work was, medic72.
Like 'hero2zero' my work was my life and now I'm struggling to deal without it, I know how you feel, buddy.

My avatar is a kitten because, number one I absolutely love kittens even though I'm allergic to them and can't own one, number two because kittens are cute and you can't help but love them and number three, I often feel small and afraid now, just like how my kitten picture looks.

Just look at im' you can't help but love that face. <3

 

[oFant0mo]

Mine because of my xboxlive Gamertag.. and its my favorite name/title that no one will ever call me. :(

 

[Elphaba]

Elphaba - from Gregory Macguire's "Wicked". (Another take on the "wizard of oz"-story).

Avatar? I couldn't really find what I wanted. But I like nice and open places and the sky

 

[James B.]

My avatar change reflects personal growth and healing. Also wanted to be reminded of the period when I experienced my worst trauma. Maybe it will help keep me grounded, and more in touch with who I am? At any rate, kinda think it's fun and joyful too.

 

[anni]

I personally loved- liked really- this photo of you, James, when you posted it a bit ago. There were others which were tough to look at because the pain showed so clearly in the little boy eyes-haunting- and then THIS one, where you were *just* a boy, looking like one of mine when he's just stuck something unspeakable in his sister's bathrobe pocket.The juxtaposition made it all the more enchanting, actually.

 

[anthony]

My current one is because my wife nagged me to death until I included a "me & her" pic... as I had a me and my boys pic previously... me me me me me... good grief...

 

[Nicolette]

Hey buddy....'me' counts some time - otherwise no point being married :p

 

[anni]

I hate to be the one to point this out, but she's the definitely the pretty half, so sort of dresses up a photo. I'm rather certain NOT being described as pretty is as much a compliment to a guy as referring to a woman the same way, so have no qualms in mentioning this. :)

 

[goingonhope]

I've had a handful of avatars. Most of my avatars reflected how I felt and where I believed I was at; and was just another way to express myself.

This most recent one expresses where I'd like to return fully in thought and state of consciousness. I'd had this avatar before an auto accident last year, and I'd now like to return to it while desiring to return to an emotional place of trusting people.

I'd love to trust others regard for each other, and once again, my regard for others and the competencies in what we all bring to the table in various relationships. I'd love to redevelop, or just simply be given, more of this trust vs. my numerous fears entertwined with great fear of people, specifically fear of those holding some degree of power; this would all be great.

I'd also be very happy with me becoming more communicative, open, trusting and socialable once again with people, as opposed to this painful lonliness, fear, distrust and isolation which I've too frequently, while not wishing to, imposed upon myself and even sometimes upon others within my family, off and back on again, and over this past yr.

Why does this hurt responding to this chit-chat thread? Not really asking.

 

[Squiff]

Squiff or Squiffy was my nick name from my family.It reminds me of a happy time when life was simple and had no real understanding of lifes complexeties.
My Father still referes to anything broken , bent or busted to be Skew Whiff.

It might seem negative but its a reminder to me that I was an OK kid and it was my family that victimised me and turned out a vulnerable kid that is not to blame for the weakness exploited by a preditor.
For most of my life I blamed myself for my trauma but this name is that of normal kid that had and still has a sick family.

Like Anthony said in the video "we like to bullshit ourslves" and overcoming PTSD often feels like pushing shit uphill to me and check out the beetle, he cant even see where he's going. My dungball of PTSD seems bigger than me and the moment I stop pushing it flatens me,rolls to the bottom and I have to start all over again.

Its the one step forward and two steps back concept that I think we all fight with the great dung ball of life . . .

 

[unknown]

Name - unknown, is because that is who and how I am / feel. And the picture is my dog :) isn't he cute lol.

 

[jasmin]

Name- it's my middle name.. I still am a little reserved about the whole internet identity thing.. mainly just because if my name gets googled (due to my artwork) I don't want my personal issues to emerge to any ol' joe.But I'm Korrin By the way.

Avavtar- It's a dud drawing I did for an exhibition called sibling series, never did use it for the series or the exhibition though. I did it when I first began "recovery" for anorexia, I hated it at the time and thew it to the side but then later I found it and it really stood out to me. It is now perhaps one of my favorites.. the masked child.. I am always wearing the mask.. I don't know how not to.

Also an interesting fact that I only noticed only now, sibling series was based a psychologically referential take on folklore rendered through a hybridization of the physiologically mutated. I'm an only child and lord knows I'm psychologically disturbed hahah body dismorphia too (that's got better though). it's amazing how self referential and theraputic art can be, even when unintentionally.