Woke Up Remembering What I Dreamt...

[anonymous]

I have not had nightmares, or remembered my dreams in a good while, but this morning was different. I have been wrestling with the idea of using the medication prescribed to me by my shrink, and yesterday I researched it a little bit more and found that for some people it causes very vivid dreams and sometimes nightmares. I put off taking the Trazadone another night, and ended up having nightmares in the early morning hours. It's so weird, to not take it, but then to have nightmares, after no nightmares at all for so long...

I dreamt that I had 3 daughters (I only have 1) and that the 3 of them were playing outside when the youngest one of them was abducted. When I discovered that she was missing I immediately began searching for her everywhere, but no one wanted to help, everyone was kind of going through the motions of their own lives with indifference. I was in a terrible emotional state in my dream, and it took a short while after I awoke for me to calm down and feel better.

I had 4 consecutive miscarriages after my daughter and I used to have nightmares all the time about my various children... It has been a long time since I had dreams with that kind of emotional quality to it. I don't know what may have caused this. Maybe my fear of being medicated caused a surge in anxiety, resulting in nightmares....?

I plan to take that Trazadone, eventually...

 

[KwanYingirl]

Nightmares come when I least expect them. I, too had several miscarriages and thirty years later I still have missing children nightmares. I took Trazadone for awhile, but it was too sedating for me and I got switched to Sonata. It puts me to sleep but doesn't keep me asleep. Last week I started getting night sweats fifteen years after menopause!! My mother said the same thing happened to her so I'm not going to worry about it. Just one more thing keeping me up at night....oh, yeah-I didn't get nightmares from Trazadone.

 

[garden]

I did not mean to post as Anonymous. It's me.

I am comforted to know that I'm not the only one with these missing children nightmares. They are crazy intense, and the emotions are terrible. I guess I am trying to figure out how to prevent their onset, but there is no way to do that. I know that I'm overthinking the Trazadone, and I thought that may have been a trigger. Figuring out triggers is a challenge sometimes...

 

[Nam]

I don't believe I've had a miscarriage. (it's iffy. When I was in high school, had a positive result but got my period the next day.) But I do have dreams of missing children. Or children hurt or harmed directly from my actions. One was about cooking where my daughter fell into the gas burners. Another was when I crashed our van from driving waaay too fast. I've had choking, fallings, abductions... I think it's the mother in us. I mean it's the number one fear, yes? For me, losing my child or children would be horrific, but if it was my fault, then I wouldn't live. I'm positive. The dreams wake me up with a start. I have to go see them sleeping peacefully in their beds. Kiss the top of their head, take a deep breath of their scent. Then I go back to bed, look at the ceiling for at least an hour and pledge to do better.

Being a mother is hard. :hug:

 

[KwanYingirl]

Lori McKenna wrote a great song that I'm positive is about her son and she really nailed how hard it is to see our children suffering. You can google Lori McKenna lyrics the song is "Hardly Speaking a Word" its even better with the music!