Would you choose to not have trauma?

[Roland]

I don't think so. It made me who I am, strong, resilient, tough. I sometimes consider people with less trauma than me, like people that grew up with stable parents and I get jealous of them but then I see how they can't handle even a tiny hardship without falling apart. What I experienced broke me in many ways, but picking myself up and putting myself back together has made me more capable. I feel like I could handle anything.

 

[whenskyended]

Would I choose not to have trauma? Absolutely, my family has robbed me so much that it'll take me years to truly collect myself and become someone I can be prouder of.

Would I rewrite my past entirely? Not really. Even though I've had traumatic experiences, I've also had a lot of experiences (both positive and negative) with people outside of my family that shaped the way I am. As sad and angry as I am sometimes, I can still find some happiness and hope now and that's good enough for me. I hope that in another life I'm given the love and care I needed and deserved in this one.

 

[enough]

hmm. Trauma caused a disorder in my life. Dis-order. Are there any conditions that go counter to what is accepted as the desired, optimal “normal” condition that are sought after and worth choosing if given a hypothetical choice? Oh f*ck no.

 

[Wendell_R]

We have lots of alters because of our trauma. When we imagine a life without trauma, it's hard to even conceive of that without the death of many of our alters. It's very odd--we often feel lonely because of the CPTSD and dissociative disorder, but then when we imagine a life without trauma we have a profound existential dread.

 

[Friday]

Would you choose to not have trauma if you could?

No.

 

[Anita]

We have lots of alters because of our trauma. When we imagine a life without trauma, it's hard to even conceive of that without the death of many of our alters. It's very odd--we often feel lonely because of the CPTSD and dissociative disorder, but then when we imagine a life without trauma we have a profound existential dread.

From what happened to me in my life I would cherish no more trauma

 

[megalocardia]

this is a toughie but I think I would keep things the same, but free my current self of the trauma instilled inside me now, if that makes sense? I appreciated my knowledge, my deep heart, my compassion, etc. But I do want to be unbound from the trauma residue that keeps me stuck