I'm Sorry

[EveHarrington]

I think that when you're ready you'll enter into a detox facility and get clean. I don't think you're at that point yet. It's clear that you want a good life but it doesn't seem that you're willing to do what it takes to get there-----namely getting clean no matter how much the withdrawals just plain stink.

You're taking so many different drugs that in all honesty a complete detox is probably the only way to figure out what's going on, what drugs are exacerbating your symptoms, which ones are doing not much of anything, and so on.

@Ragdoll Circus Hit the nail on the head.

 

[Mallaky]

You're taking so many different drugs that in all honesty a complete detox is probably the only way to figure out what's going on, what drugs are exacerbating your symptoms, which ones are doing not much of anything, and so on.

That is a very important point in my opinion. @sonicwhite you seem to think you have figured it out, that you know what is going on. But a drug habbit can do really confusing and surprisingly unexpected things to you. Its honestly the best reason to get clean there is. One needs to take stock of who one is without the drugs, to really know oneself. Otherwise getting better is a Sisyphean task. Also, this takes a while, so professionel help is the best way to go. Good luck whatever you chose to do.

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm taking 1800 mg of the stuff a day for Sciatic Nerve Pain and I was just raised to that by my MD, but my Psychiatrist is the one who prescribes it, so I hope he will agree to the raise in dosage. He prescribes it for Bipolar, and the nerve pain was what it was originally prescribed for years ago, but he "stole" it from my MD when I moved here from Florida and since I guess I ended up seeing him before I could get in with the MD, I let him prescribe it for my Bipolar. I have enough of it in the bottle to raise the dose to the 1800 a day for this week, and I see my Psychiatrist on Wednesday, so I hope he agrees to the dosage change. I had my MD send him a note explaining why I should be taking the 1800 mg a day. I hope it all works out, but in case it does not, then I will ask my MD to prescribe it at that dosage, when I see her about a week later. One way or the other, it should all work out, as long as my insurance company (Medicare part D) agrees to the higher dosage.

As to Euphoria, I have not experienced that while taking it as yet. With this higher dose, I feel a bit light headed or dizzy, so I am being extra careful to watch my balance. Other than that, I feel about the same as I did at the 900 mg a day.

I wish you well with whatever you and your Dr.s decide you need to do concerning this. I also take Clonazepam, so I can relate to your needing it also. My life would be rough without it! I take 1 mg of it every night at bedtime and I have a half a mg of it available as needed for daytime upsets and anxiety. It is a Godsend.

 

[Neverthesame]

there going to think the same thing about the klonopin which I don't abuse.

It's possible this might happen. But I can't imagine it's common for a drug rehab to have patients come in looking for help, with an addiction to a low abuse potential drug. Only to deliberately become addicted to a higher abuse potential drug.

Besides rehab clinics usually have a dispensary. Meaning that if you are supposed to take one klonopin per day, to relieve the withdrawals from the gabapentin. That's what you will get. One pill. And if you want, they'll be happy to make sure you take it.

As for the other thing...

I debated with myself whether I was going to say anything. I'm probably going to regret this. But here's my opinion on the other side topic here in this thread.

Whether or not you have ptsd. Is none of my business. That's between you, your brain and God.

I didn't read the post that got you temp banned. So I don't have any opinion on that, as anything I say would be coming straight out of my ass.

My thought on the matter, simply put. I don't know if you have PTSD, or if all of your mental health issues are drug related, or misdiagnosed schizophrenia. Or some combination of the above. Again it's not really my buisness.

Why would a drug addict come to a PTSD forum? I don't know.

Why would one stay? Maybe they find something here that is helpful to them. I imagine that just like we tend to. Drug abuse forums probably have the usual stock answers for everyone who comes in the forum asking for advice.

While I'm sure it would be useful, practical advice. Much in the same way as "ptsd isn't an excuse to be an asshole" is. Maybe a different group of people coming at the problem from a different perspective, may think of something different, or if nothing else phrase it in a way that helps to stir the pot, so it sinks in. Though I am just speculating here.

I don't personally have a problem with anyone who comes here looking for advice, help or anything else if it isn't harming anybody.

I can say for sure, I find a young guy with anxiety issues and a substance abuse problem a hell of alot less offensive than say, a person who comes here looking to use the worst experiences of our lives as material for a bloody romance novel.

*sigh*

Anyways, that's my opinion. For whatever that's worth, if anything.

 

[Justmehere]

@Neverthesame - very well said. I agree with every word.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

raise the dose to the 1800 a day

As to Euphoria, I have not experienced that while taking it as yet. With this higher dose

Sheila, I take 1200mg three times a day = 3600mg a day and havent experienced euphoria but apparently in doses 3500mg at a time or higher you do. "Gaba" is a new street drug. I didnt know that either as I take it as perscribed.

 

[Changing4Best]

Oh, thanks for letting me know it is a street drug, I will make sure to keep it safe and locked up at all times.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I take 100 3 times a day, and it caused euphoria and sleep. Now that I am used to it my doc is trying to raise it to 200 3 x a day by increasing it 100mg every other day. I'm very sensitive to it but it helps my pain and bipolar. I was on 100 3 times a day about 7 years ago and it made me to "high" to work so I stopped right away. I never liked the feeling of being high or drunk, and I thank God for that because everyone else in my family is/was an alcoholic, drug addict. So my thought are get help. It will always be that.

 

[Lionheart]

I can't help but to wonder why you come to a support forum then brush off everything that has been said to you out of concern for your safety as if other trauma survivors have nothing of importance to share?!!

I will pray for you and will be here for you to support and encourage you if you ever make the decision to help yourself out.