I'm A Mess Right Now

[7Cs]

The "mood" swings are so bad right now and I can't stop them. Mostly they stay in my head though and noone else has to deal with the mess.

There is so much and I feel like I'm going crazy. I get reprieves of feeling normal or numb every now and then but it keeps coming back.

I don't know what to do.

I have therapy today but I don't know if it will help.

Relaxations don't help, reading doesn't help. I can't concentrate on one thing and keep getting sidetracked.

I've lost my coffee like 10 times this morning.... the least of my problems.

This is the worst (I think) these swings have been in a long time.


How to handle it? Anyone?

 

[chant2012]

I'm not sure. I usually self-harm, I know that's not it helpful. I have "swings" too. If you would like to talk I'm here.

 

[Muted]

How did therapy go today @7Cs ? Were you able to discuss how you're feeling with your T?

 

[8888]

Sending support.

 

[Rani G2]

@7Cs

I think i can relate to what you say. I have been going through similar days. Even today, I go from somewhat stable to madness. Thoughts cross my mind, I cry....keep on crying. Its just blood sucking. I am so exhausted.

What do I do? Listen to music, clean...
Reading.....depends...needs to be a very good book..

Its hard to breathe, so I focus on breathing.

Sorry, not so helpful...but thats all what I can say.

 

[7Cs]

I'm not sure. I usually self-harm, I know that's not it helpful. I have "swings" too. If you would li...

:cry:

Thankfully I stopped that in my teens. It's a hard coping habit to break.

 

[7Cs]

Sending support.

:hug:
Thank you!

 

[7Cs]

@7Cs

I think i can relate to what you say. I have been going through similar days...

Sometimes it's just nice to not feel alone in this so thank you. I hope you feel better soon.

 

[7Cs]

How did therapy go today @7Cs ? Were you able to discuss how you're feeling with you...

Doing better since therapy. I really needed to talk about my recent triggers I think. I got a few suggestions on things to try when it happens again since absolutely nothing in my arsenal was working. I'm really pleased that this new T, who specializes in trauma and dissociative disorders, is really open to working with "parts"/ "moods". Hopefully this is the therapist who finally gets me through to the other side of PTSD.