When I was a child, I had no words to explain what was going on. At times if I did, I was yelled at for being manipulative/attention-seeking, etc.
As an adult, when I get overwhelmed and emotional, I still don't have a voice. There are many words in the English language that have negative associations, that I avoid using and so I find it almost impossible to express myself verbally at times.
I can write very well, and that helps me speak, and I make art to communicate and express myself.
But I still to a large extent feel mute in a way, like I can't talk, always afraid of saying the wrong thing and things getting worse for me because of what I said.
Does anyone else have this problem? I think it's from years of abuse and not being able to talk about emotions or what was going on. Then also being verbally and psychologically abused (my viewpoint is "wrong").
How do you deal with this?
As an adult, when I get overwhelmed and emotional, I still don't have a voice. There are many words in the English language that have negative associations, that I avoid using and so I find it almost impossible to express myself verbally at times.
I can write very well, and that helps me speak, and I make art to communicate and express myself.
But I still to a large extent feel mute in a way, like I can't talk, always afraid of saying the wrong thing and things getting worse for me because of what I said.
Does anyone else have this problem? I think it's from years of abuse and not being able to talk about emotions or what was going on. Then also being verbally and psychologically abused (my viewpoint is "wrong").
How do you deal with this?