So I just have a quick question really. Is lying on top of a child and sort of kissing and grinding (so they are underneath and you are on top) sexual abuse?
I have a memory of my dad doing this which is a clear memory but confusing. I had other csa experiences which I know were that with someone else but with my dad it felt different. So I am asking about this specific situation or behaviour. Is it sexual abuse. I worry about getting confused.
Sorry this is a graphic question
Also does anyone else think about the events in sort of child language? So I sort of remember things like 'he is doing this, putting his hand there' etc where as an adult I would say groping me or stroking me or inserting x or y or digital penetration or whatever). I just wondered whether I am strange for this. I sort of remember it as I did when it was happening like 'he's putting this there' rather than the adult words. Again is it strange. I have this longstanding problem with putting things into words and I feel like this might be why.
I have a memory of my dad doing this which is a clear memory but confusing. I had other csa experiences which I know were that with someone else but with my dad it felt different. So I am asking about this specific situation or behaviour. Is it sexual abuse. I worry about getting confused.
Sorry this is a graphic question
Also does anyone else think about the events in sort of child language? So I sort of remember things like 'he is doing this, putting his hand there' etc where as an adult I would say groping me or stroking me or inserting x or y or digital penetration or whatever). I just wondered whether I am strange for this. I sort of remember it as I did when it was happening like 'he's putting this there' rather than the adult words. Again is it strange. I have this longstanding problem with putting things into words and I feel like this might be why.