Guys, sometimes seemingly random (I’m sure it’s triggered by something) I have body flashbacks (I know there’s a word for that) but basically I feel in my body and genital region pain of having been molested. I then disassociate so much, I don’t feel safe in my body. Grounding exercises have always made it worse, it helps me to think of myself as a mind or a spirit with no body. When this happens I feel hypersensitive to myself and my body (not wanting to be touched) but numb at the same time, like almost like it scares me to touch myself but I also don’t feel it completely because I’m disassociating and being like “I don’t have a body, I’m not real, this isn’t happening”. My only trick is to wait for it to pass, I was lucky that I was able to sleep it off and feel okay the next day. Sometimes it’s so strong it lasts for days and days. These kind of flashbacks are so weird because I don’t know what all has happened to me. I forgot a lot, so I just have feelings and sensations with no visual or factual memory. Writing helps, but yeah I hate this shit so much.