Fed Up With The Rollercoaster Of Emotion

[KP the nut]

Had a cry on the dogs, now they keep checking on me, a cup of coffee and some chocolate. Managed to put the Mommy mask on when my daughter phoned, so she thinks all is well. I should phone H, but he is on a course and away and will feel guilty that he is not here. I'll tell him later.

I sent an email to the union man.

This life is awful, can I have another please. I can't keep pulling myself up only for another obstacle to appear.

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Hey beautiful (((((((((((((Kath))))))))))))))))),

Checking up on you, too...

i'm so glad you have your wonderful dogs there with you! Good for you for soothing yourself.
That was great thinking to email your Union man.
is there a way the Union can represent you, so you don't need to appear?

My own HO, but you take such good and comforting care of your family... could you let them take good care of you, too tonight, tomorrow...
When your H calls tonight, would it be ok to go ahead and tell him? I think knowing that he knows, that he's thinking about solutions to help you, to hear his comfort over the phone might spare you some distress? Just a thought...

I love you so very much, and ache at all the horrible trials and obstacles that come your way. I know they come with unexpected gifts, but it can be so hard to see it or appreciate it when we're in the maelstrom.

I love you with all my heart.
I'm praying for you... sending you ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))) from my heart to yours... Linking arms beloved Kath!
Deer

P.S. My trauma T told me yesterday he wants me to "relish life". Wow... what an assignment!
Shall we practice together?
Loving you as my beloved friend is something to relish in my life!

 

[KP the nut]

That was great thinking to email your Union man.
is there a way the Union can represent you, so you don't need to appear?

He can be there with me and hopefully will do most of the talking - I feel as if I'm on trial.

When your H calls tonight, would it be ok to go ahead and tell him? I think knowing that he knows, that he's thinking about solutions to help you, to hear his comfort over the phone might spare you some distress? Just a thought...

I have spoken to H. He doesn't really get why it has me in such a state. However he was so sweet and is taking the day of the appeal off to be with me. The appeal is at 3pm so I said just half a day, but no he said I'd need him in the morning and that he will take the day. He is so sweet and caring. I am so lucky to have him.

P.S. My trauma T told me yesterday he wants me to "relish life". Wow... what an assignment!
Shall we practice together?
Loving you as my beloved friend is something to relish in my life!

We will relish life together. My plan for tomorrow morning is, if the sun is shining like it was today. To get my ass out of bed. To put coffee in a flask, stop at the bakery for a croissant and take the dogs to a park next to the river. I'm going to sit and have breakfast in the sunshine. - Now please could the man upstairs bring sunshine 2 days running

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Thank you Dear Deer.

Linking arms

 

[intothelight]

I have spoken to H. He doesn't really get why it has me in such a state. However he was so sweet and is taking the day of the appeal off to be with me. The appeal is at 3pm so I said just half a day, but no he said I'd need him in the morning and that he will take the day. He is so sweet and caring. I am so lucky to have him.

(((KP))),

My hubby doesn't always get it either, but the fact that they are there to love and support us is enough.

Hope you have your sunshine tomorrow. I am stuck with snow again.

Deb

 

[deer_in_headlights]

(((((((Kath)))))))))

What great, positive steps forward you're taking!

I am awed with your courage, Hon.
You're a shining light, and if goodness and fortitude, gentleness and courage goes up on trail, those judging you will be more sternly judged if they judge you falsely. I believe in you!

I'm glad your H and Union rep will be with you, supporting you - and you have all of us here, in a group link!

I'm relishing life, talking with you...
Am going to go pet and feed the bunnies (fresh greens just arrived!)
I'm praying for you! (And hoping you have sunshine, tomorrow - and if it pours rain, may it water the beauty, the flowers in your soul.)
Love you ((((((((((Kath)))))))))))
Deer

 

[deer_in_headlights]

((((((((((Deb))))))))))))

 

[deer_in_headlights]

((((((((((((((Kath)))))))))))))

Just got back online... I hope you're able to sleep deeply, to rest well during the night.
I love you, Hon... and I'm holding you gently by my heart as you sleep.
Wishing you peace and comfort, and a joyful tomorrow... relishing life :)

Think I'll go see if I can find some chocolate around somewhere... That's a good relish! ;)
All my love (((((((((Kath)))))))))))
Deer

 

[KP the nut]

Think I'll go see if I can find some chocolate around somewhere... That's a good relish! ;)

I think I relished too much chocolate last night

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No sunshine today so no breakfast in the park. I will do it at some stage. I did take the dogs for a nice walk though. Max was v pleased with himself for finding a v boggy wet patch and splodging straight through it. Saffi is a girlie and tiptoes around the edge.

Sleep was distrubed by a succession of strange dreams and nightmares but dogs did a wonderful job pretending to be teddy bears.

I had a lovely email from my union guy, who told me not to panic, it would be relaxed and that he would be there to represent me. I have to phone him on Monday so we can arrange to meet to discuss tactics.

I'm also waiting to hear from my solicitor. I have asked if he could get more special damages from the 3rd party in my compensation claim. This is not the compensation but amounts which we have already paid out of our pockets.
It would help make our trip to Scotland a bit better as we wouldn't have to watch the pennies as much.

Still feeling as if I've been hit by another truck, but I can see that I will come through this.

(((Deer))) (((Deb))) and all. I thank you for your support. It makes a huge difference knowing that you are by my side and that we are standing together.

Let us relish life. As spring arrives it brings new beginnings and that is what I will aim for, a new start

Love
KP

 

[intothelight]

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Let us relish life. As spring arrives it brings new beginnings and that is what I will aim for, a new start

KP

Hi KP,

I guess that would be a good goal for the spring. I need to learn to "relish" life again. I have forgotten.

Deb

 

[KP the nut]

I feel so low now. As if I can't continue. I know I will but don't know how. I am weak and worthless when I'm like this. I just sit and cry yet must do stuff. I didn't sleep just lay with my mind in a jumble of worries.

I can't even put thoughts down. No energy or will.

 

[Reclusive]

KP it's okay to have a down day - just concentrate on nurturing yourself and being kind to yourself. You aren't weak, you aren't worthless, you're just a warrior in the middle of a raging battle. You can do this. Hang in there.

 

[anni]

I'm so sorry KP. You know feeling worthless makes one feel weak-sets the whole awful thing up. Sometimes it's ok to take one of those days and turn it into a day of the flu, wrap yourself up in a blanket, have tea with way too much honey and blank the mind with some frivolous book or mindless TV. It's worked for me sometimes, no idea why-maybe just allowing the sheer comfort and checking out for awhile.

Peace to you, and do take care.