How Did You Sleep Last Night?

[KP the nut]

I slept okay, but kept waking to check the time.

 

[Changing4Best]

I pretty much slept the night through, but that is quite rare, hence the mentioning of it. I did dream, but there are only fleeting memories, oh! A bunch of them just came to view. I, in the dream, had gone to a place on a vacation and someone was questioning me as to what I thought the place was. There was some kind of memorial to the dead there, so I said it was for Memorial day. Then there were fish and birds chasing them in the water of the rain that had just fallen there; the fish were huge... In my reallife, death plays a huge role, as most of my loved one have passed away including my parents and hubby. My hubby's ashes are buried at sea. Being a young widow is not pleasant! Missing one's parents, even though that is to be expected, is no fun either. Aunts, uncles, friends... the list goes on and on. And then to add insult to injury, I've just plain lost folks into the ether too.

 

[jennin2012]

Sleep? What's that???

 

[Changing4Best]

jennin, it's what we used to do at night when our parents sent us to bed early enough so that it had to happen sometimes before morning most likely! These days, what with life's problems, staying up late to watch a movie or whatever, it is not so cut and dry. (tongue in cheek here ;) ).

 

[therapybankrupt]

Horrible and frightening also very disturbing! Taking some thing new to help and that was the worst.

 

[Tanishq]

I took powerful sleep today. I am still feeling little sleepy.

 

[Changing4Best]

My dog woke me up in the middle of the nite whining... I checked to see if she needed to go out, the only reason I will respond to her in the middle of the night. Nope! She went right into the kitchen, thinking I would give her a treat. I sat down, looked her straight in the eyes and said "No." Got up, turned the kitchen light off and went back to bed. She grumbled and went off to bed at the other end of the house. To my recollection, that is the first time she has EVER done that! (and I hope the last). All I need is for her to start waking me up... what with nightmares and such, that's about the last thing in the world that I would need!

It took me over an hour to get back to sleep, and then I woke early this morning. Thankfully I took a nap yesterday afternoon, or I'd be really tired. As it is, I am maybe moderately tired and I know I will need a nap this afternoon.

 

[MissMacD]

Sleep?? Hasn't happened much in the past few weeks. I can get a few hours in at a time and when I wake up I just feel cranky and worn out. Every muscle in my body hurts, particularly between my shoulders.

I started CBT 2 weeks ago and it has put my anxiety at an all time high. It sucks because I am doing this all without any medication. I have really weird reactions to medication and it usually ends up having the opposite effect. Sleeping pills wake me up and anti-anxiety and antidepressant medication only makes me climb the walls with agitation and extreme anxiety.

The only thing that works for me is Ativan which I have a PRN prescription for - but I can only take it a few days in a row because it stops working if I take it for more than 2-3 days in a row. In a bad month like November I have to go over a week without any Ativan because it runs out and nothing else works.

Some days I don't know how I do this without substance abuse, it probably has something to do with being drugged against my will during my childhood. I hate the feeling of being under the influence of anything because it triggers things.

 

[Changing4Best]

Some days I don't know how I do this without substance abuse, it probably has something to do with being drugged against my will during my childhood. I hate the feeling of being under the influence of anything because it triggers things.

I hate the feeling of being under the influence of anything and I don't believe I was drugged as a child, so it may just be that yu hate it for the feelings it gives you, but it could be as you say, because of what happened as a child, OR BOTH! Either way, congrats upon NOT allowing yourself to overdo it now with the meds. Good for you!

 

[MissMacD]

Thanks Sheila! It's not easy especially the past few weeks when I am fresh into CBT and have only been sleeping a few hours a night and have had my digestive system do all sorts of weird things in response to stirring of my past. I know it will pass and that I will start to feel better soon.

Hope is one of the most precious things in life and it has kept me alive and safe thus far.

 

[Ayasha]

Hope is one of the most precious things in life and it has kept me alive and safe thus far.

I really, really like that statement MissMacD--it made me happy to read it as I think we all need hope to keep going.

And I actually slept rather well, I can't believe it has been THREE days in a row where I've not had any night terrors.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

It would have been better if I hadn't woken up once and had 3 nightmares back to back.