You Know Your Paranoid When...

[shimmerz]

Or not freezing, at least. Totally depends what type of response it is, and how it's checked.

Anger is something that is new to me. Really useful, although I didn't know it before. Moves one forward rather than freezing. Freezing is something that crazies use against us. Just learning patterns and useful anger responses. I have a fair bit to catch up on.

As far as the house goes? Freezing in one spot (which I used to do), whether I knew the place better or not, was a complete waste of time and put me into such a fear response. I wonder what OP can do - maybe a camera or something to see what is going on? I think the main thing is being able to 'move forward' when such things are happening. Because the OP doesn't know who is doing it there is a form of trapped-ness to their response.... like mine used to be, except it was a complete physical freeze.

 

[shimmerz]

sooooooooo, are you saying that's not "what everyone does"? 'cause it seems pretty normal to me.

No, I think it takes up less reptilian brain slices with most though.
Normal thought process 'Idiots, WTF?' Onwards with life
Compulsive 'Jesus, who would do that? Was it him? Or her? What do I do to stop this? OMG what an invasion! I need to figure out how to get this to STOP! This is driving me nuts! What about this person that I saw walking on the sidewalk? Is it my neighbour? Who has a baby? Wait a minute! Why a diaper? What the hell did I do? (searches memory banks)..... and on.... and on..... and on..... and on.....'

Know what I mean? Looking for the ever elusive meaning of f*cked up people who like to screw with other people's heads. Not certain there is a deep meaning.... besides the fact that they are crazies with nothing better to do.

 

[Friday]

<chuckling> I tell my son : Paranoid is being afraid of something that isn't real. Which is vastly different from being *annoyed* ; which is what is happening right now! When it is real. ;)

((In reference to Stalker-Ex & the Teeny Tiny Wiener Squad -aka his friends- ))

 

[Friday]

You know you're paranoid when... This is your touchstone: :P

Just because you think there is an enemy hiding behind every bush? Doesn't mean that there isn't!

 

[shimmerz]

Just because you think there is an enemy hiding behind every bush? Doesn't mean that there isn't!

This is right on. The problem comes when one is not open to the fact that there might NOT be. That indicates a program loop imho.

 

[scout86]

No, I think it takes up less reptilian brain slices with most though.

Hmmmm....

Well, remember when we were talking about my T saying he thought I was too hypervigilant to dissociate, and what was that like? Kind of like, "it would never occur to me to just accept something like this as a simple fact, I would HAVE to look for a pattern and a motive and....." (Perhaps this just means "normal" people just take too much for granted and don't pay enough attention to their surroundings. :smug:)

 

[shimmerz]

remember when we were talking about my T saying he thought I was too hypervigilant to dissociate

lol. I wondered if you would catch that one, Scout. I was actually (true story), thinking of you when I typed it out.

Perhaps this just means "normal" people just take too much for granted and don't pay enough attention to their surroundings.

Good recovery. I have to give you that one. And truthfully, I am not certain which one was worse for me, dissociation or hypervigilance. Equally as annoying and debilitating (for me)

 

[scout86]

I was actually (true story), thinking of you when I typed it out.

Why am I not surprised? :roflmao:

At some point, maybe I need to understand "dissociation" better. On the one hand, having a handy and reliable way of escape always available seems cool. On the other, it really looks like a good way to get killed. (There hasn't often been anyone who'd look out for me if I wasn't available to do it myself.)

I keep telling T, "It's not hyper anything, it's situational awareness and it's a GOOD thing!" He looks over the top of his glasses at me, says it's a good thing, "to a point" and suggests not getting carried away. :angelic:

Any idea how one figures out where the line between "enough" and "too much" is?

 

[Friday]

Any idea how one figures out where the line between "enough" and "too much" is?

Enough is useful. Too much is distracting.

 

[scout86]

Too much is distracting.

Could be "distracting" is too much fun sometimes. "A bright shiny object" so to speak?

I love it when I start out just fooling around and then accidentally come across a useful insight!

 

[Ronin]

More like I couldn't chase a shiny object if it landed five feet from me and jumped away.

Or like Hey, shiny, come back, I'd really love to play but I can't focus even if you paid me, because there's so much noise all around.

... not meaning to speak for Friday, shinies just inspired a tangent of comparisons.

 

[shimmerz]

How about something like 'ahhhhh, I love shiny! Or, 'goddam, that is way too shiny on a sunny day like today. Commentary only. Acknowledge it for what it is and walk away.'

The less brain slices it takes up, the better.