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    Childhood Wanting to remember

    Just to add to this and why this has come up. Christmas time is here, obviously and my twin brother (no abuse or anything there) we were do close at one point but he's really distanced himself. Not just from me but the whole family! Last time I saw him was last Nov at pur aunts funeral. Before...
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    Childhood Wanting to remember

    So, I don't know if this sounds strange. I was sexually abused when I was younger. I remember who they were but I don't remember the ages that it started at stopped. I don't remember much, to be honest. I have a couple of memories there, so obviously know it happened but I'd like to be able to...
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    Difficulties in relationship - Spousal Rape

    I'm having some issues in my current relationship. we've been together for 9 and half years, we have 3 children together. When we first got together, things were good. It all moved quickly, we moved in together, and I was pregnant 6 months into the relationship, but as I said, we were good. I...
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    Sexual Assault Triggered - Addressing the aftermath of trauma in close relationships. Best friend, boyfriend, therapist.

    So my best friend and I have a similar history with men, in that we have both been r*ped and were good at being there for each other. The other day, she was saying she wanted to be more open with her therapist... so she wrote a lot of things about what happened with him......and sent it to me...
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    Therapy is hard!

    I can go through the week and get some bits wrote down and add to it, when needed for therapy sessions but (sometimes) when it comes to it, I can never send it It just seems like the hardest thing in the world! It's honestly so frustrating because I know I probably should be going into this...
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    Pushing therapist away? Maybe?

    Although didn't go into what I'd originally wrote, We still went into some stuff....so I don't feel like it was a wasted session or anything. I just wish I could be more open about what I need to be speaking about, the things that pop up sometimes and the things that snowball and keep...
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    Sexual Assault Strange to feel ok

    I have this strange thing....and I don't know if it is a trauma response or what but it's like, I can have a few days where i feel "ok" but feeling ok feels strange to me....like I'm not supposed to feel ok and I need to do something to make me feel rubbish....this time, it has just made me fix...
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    Having a bit of a dip

    Could be a number of reasons, I'm not even sure what's going on with me. Do you ever feel this way? Like, you're just sad/tearful and there may be a few contributing factors and I don't know which is bothering me more. Does this sound strange? I don't know
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    Sexual Assault Body memories? Feeling sore/used down below.

    I didn't really want to go into details but I think I have to to get more understanding of what, if anything....but please know, this is super hard to post because its just so personal. So a long time ago now, for a while. I was getting this feeling....it doesn't usually last for long and it...
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    Questions from therapist - What to work on & how would I know things were better?

    My therapist asked me to think of a couple of things this week and I'm not sure why but it took a while for me to come up with answers. 1. What I'd like to work on/ how I'd like things to be different. So for this. I'd say a big thing that I think I need to work on is how I see myself/how I...
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    Feelings into words

    Feel a bit rubbish after the session this morning. It's always been so hard for me to put feelings into words and tell therapist how I'm really feeling and that's how its been today. Why is it so difficult to put into words and how do i get passed that. She said she is going to send a feelings...
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    Other Cervical screening

    So, I'm 38 and I've never had a cervical screening....I've had 3 children, so that probably seems silly....doesn't it? Like, I had all those people around me during labour and I can't face a 121 with a nurse 🤦‍♀️ Anyway, I've booked a cervical screening for the Tues 5th Sept at 11.30 because on...
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    Sexual Assault Sexual coercion?

    I told my therapist about this and was referred to child services, as our children were in house at the time. They were downstairs, they saw/heard nothing. Have an assessment with child services tomorrow afternoon
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    Sexual Assault Childrens services

    I told my therapist about a recent sexual assault by my other half. She referred me and child services have been in touch this morning. They want to come to the house to speak to me and speak to the children. Has anyone had a EHA.assessment before? What will they ask my little ones?TIA
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    Sexual Assault Sexual coercion?

    He came home, after a drink about 3am....and was trying it on but I didn't want to and I honestly lost count of the amount of times I said no, stop....and he did stop when I told him too but also kept trying it on too. Then this morning, he asked if we were going to have sex before the little...
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    Anxious day

    Super anxious this morning, couldnt pinpoint at the time..I think some of it probably was from therapy yesterday but I also realised myself that it was because I had to go out on my own, on the bus and to a place I wasn't very aware of to take care of 3 dogs (I'm a dog walker/dog groomer). I...
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    What/when to share

    Just finished a session. It went OK. I kept myself busy before hand, so I didn't drive myself crazy with anxiety 🙈 She says she is happy to go at the speed I want to but she needs me to give her an idea.of what she's working with and I don't know if it's the reaction I for when I shared a...
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    Leaving it alone

    I wanted to run something by you all and I may have mentioned it before....I'm writing it out again because I'm going to be sending this over to my therapist too....I think 🤔 Anyway, do you think there is anything to the whole "leave it alone" logic? So with being on holiday and not having a...
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    Stuck - Do you ever feel like you're no good at the therapy thing?

    Do you ever feel like you're no good at the therapy thing? I can't always put things in to words or even say how I'm feeling....this has nothing to do with my therapist, she's really lovely. Today we spoke about what I wrote on here about watching something happening to myself and although I...
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    Sexual Assault Struggling with intrusive thoughts and triggers

    Couple things that popped up, early hours. My current partner was out, watching football and having a couple drinks. So whilst he was gone, I had a bath / washed my hair and then went to bed with my hair down....until I had the voice of my ex telling me "I knew you wanted it really, because you...
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    Is it me? I feel like I'm keeping myself stuck and I should be doing more for myself but it's just so hard

    Hmm....do you ever wonder, if its you? If its you that's keeping yourself stuck in the depressive cycle? I'm going to try and make sense, but to be honest....I'm not even sure what I'm talking about! I go through periods where I feel OK...but then, it's like, I can only feel ok for a couple of...
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    Fidgeting during session

    Had session this morning. Last week was a bit rubbish but I've been doing better this week. She asked if I thought it'd be easier to go into the hard stuff whilst I was feeling ok....I said i didnt want to go back to how i was feeling last week. We spoke about my twin brother though and how...
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    Childhood I told someone!

    I stayed at my friend's house last night and we were having a few drinks....Needless to say, I got a little drunk and emotional and I ended up telling her about the childhood ab*se and the fact that I saw one of them last week and how I felt it really set me back. I found it so difficult, it...
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    Sex After Rape/CSA

    Has anyone gone on to have a normal/happy s*x life after r*pe and/or s*xual ab*se? I went from being hypersexual in my 20's to the complete opposite now, in my 30's. I can honestly say if I never had s*x again, I'd be happy....but I know s*x in a relationship is important. The thing is, I'm...
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    Anxiety all the time

    Since starting with therapist in Dec, I feel anxious all the time. What is the criteria for meds? I hate making appts/phone calls, so I'd like to know what they will ask etc before I call them. I'm already on sertraline and I've had 2 MH assessments/CBT and I'll be telling them I've started with...
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