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I have been chronically ill for 7 months. I have lost 46# during that time. I feel like I am being discounted all over again. I have nothing but negative tests. (5).I suffer from epigastric pain, vomiting 4-6 hours after eating. Could this time of illness be functional and associated with...

I have been thinking how many times I retraumatize myself.I keep a journal and revisiting the past in my writing makes me anxious, even depressed as I have not yet been able to move on. Is it healthy to retraumatize yourself so often in therapy? Does it keep you stuck and not moving forward with...

I want to thank the moderators who introduced me to the Emotions Wheel.. Since I have a hard time with feelings I use it morning and night. I then journal trying to identify, who, what, when ,where or how. It is helping me so much and keeping me from burying and turning a blind eye to what is...

I had lunch with a friend today. I was aware when I got home how unfiltered I was. Does PTSD or CPTSD symptoms include unfiltered communication?Caught a little off guard. Not gossip or anything of that nature.

Since I have joined this forum I have worked harder than if I had a regular job. Coming to grips with this disorder means showing up everyday. It means going to work when you don’t feel like it because all you want to do is roll over and go back to sleep. It means being aware of a healthy diet...

I have had several reactions that thought I was being too hard on myself. I felt like Alice who fell down a rabbit hole. Sometimes I was very large and did not fit in my skin. Sometimes I was very very small and other people were big. Even God was small. I joined this forum and started...

I have been thinking about my relationships. I have about 4 friends that I feel safe with and at times unsafe. I realize that I do not connect with people. I had no connection with my mother and stepfather where I felt safe. Consequently, even though I was well liked as I presented a false self...

I have no access to therapists in my area. Over the months I have been on this forum I have taken advantage of the articles, the AI ,the suggested resources, Andy’s articles, the input from those who are further a long in their dealing with their CPTSD/PTSD.I have journaled, read books, and...

I, in the last 2 months ,have lost 23 lbs. I stopped eating sugars and AP flour. I wanted an exercise routine that could do at home. Due to physical limitations I decided resistace band was a good choice. I watched an instructor on YouTube. It is chair workout. I am slowly increasing the reps...

I have not thought of this until recently. My spouse is not an abuser in the true sense of the word but I married him because of his stability and appearance of having his life together. Great guy But. His personality and emotional interactions are too familiar. Withdrawn. Not social. Never...

Is it possible that CPTSD can be the source of early onset cognitive problems and beginning signs of dementia? I am having some scarey symptoms these last thee months. Now it is forgetting names and faces or what I went into another room to do.

I have read and met one person that criticized me for labeling myself as having CPTSD as it is limiting myself to do such a thing. It is boxing me into being my diagnosis rather than an autonomous human who has struggles like the rest of people. Can you help me understand this. I can somewhat...

I am in despair. I am intelligent, have a good sense of humor,attractive (all developed for acceptability). I am as authentic as I can be in all areas except my past which I hide. That is not something I want to talk about. I live with this disorder,as I know others know. I have been in many...

Things will generally go along fine but this week her and her husband attacked me for holding an opinion about the change in credit scores and mortgages which takes place May 1st. My son in law accused me of not caring about the marginalized. That is so not the case. I just drove a 90 year old...

I was journaling tonight and all of a sudden I became aware of resentment I have been carrying toward my husband. He is very regimented. I have lived with it for years but now his expectations are I become like him. We are retired. His motto has been work first play later. Our house is clean...

I will miss all of you. But my life is out of control with my iPad. I need to put it away and live my real life. Not that on line is not real at times. My husband is kindly holding me accountable. This is my drug of choice and I have tried to monitor it…unsuccessfully. I continue with all of you...

There is a woman I recently met in a group I belong to. Everything in me the last two times I met her reads “ danger”. I am to attend this group tomorrow and everything within me wants to cancel and isolate so I don’t have to interact with her. She triggers my fear and anxiety. How do I protect...

I have been working so hard on hyper-vigilante behavior. Someone said something to me and right away I started questioning a hidden meaning in their comment. I grew very anxious mulling over the hidden meaning and I was going over and over it in my mind. Finally, I said stop it out loud. I...

I am stuck in that I lived with my grandmother the first years of my life. I was a bother as she had already raised 5 girls and she was elderly. She was a very cold woman. There was no bonding, warmth or nurturing. I have no memory of my mother until the day I had the German measles. It was the...

I tried EMDR online. I woke up two hours later with severely painful joints. I have CPTSD. Five years ago diagnosed with fibromyalgia but in remission with Duloxitime. Is this a reaction to EMDR?