osiris
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Forgive me. I am bad at using this site.
Writing this post feels scary and painful.
I am struggling with eating/not eating.
I have finally explained to T how disordered my relationship with food is. I will go days without eating unless someone physically puts food in front of me.
I don’t think I know what it feels like to be hungry. Deep down there’s also the feeling that I don’t deserve food and withholding it is a suitable punishment.
In my diary a couple of weeks ago someone mentioned an accountability partner to help make better choices.
The dr has been giving me a whole bunch of pills for years for my appalling B and D vitamin and iron levels (like they are basically non existent), and I keep throwing them away because I don’t eat and then don’t take them.
So I kind of need some help to check in with food. The what did you last eat thread is great but I just beat myself up when I see what everyone else is eating.
I think I need a place to check in to simply say I’ve eaten. Is that ok?
Mod Edit:
Please can people not talk about actual types of food. If you want to talk about meals there’s another thread that covers that.
Writing this post feels scary and painful.
I am struggling with eating/not eating.
I have finally explained to T how disordered my relationship with food is. I will go days without eating unless someone physically puts food in front of me.
I don’t think I know what it feels like to be hungry. Deep down there’s also the feeling that I don’t deserve food and withholding it is a suitable punishment.
In my diary a couple of weeks ago someone mentioned an accountability partner to help make better choices.
The dr has been giving me a whole bunch of pills for years for my appalling B and D vitamin and iron levels (like they are basically non existent), and I keep throwing them away because I don’t eat and then don’t take them.
So I kind of need some help to check in with food. The what did you last eat thread is great but I just beat myself up when I see what everyone else is eating.
I think I need a place to check in to simply say I’ve eaten. Is that ok?
Mod Edit:
Please can people not talk about actual types of food. If you want to talk about meals there’s another thread that covers that.
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