DID All the time-no break

[Punky143]

Happens even more with an increase of stress combined with all the (DID) parts. So if you don't have this damning condition let me explain. Relentlessly explaining to a 4 yr old, 6 yr old, 8 yr old, 14 yrs old all separately a concept such as our T on vacation- again. Yup, abandonment. It's this enhanced miserable loneliness no one on the outside will ever understand because we will be judged first and foremost and there's no going back. I have no idea how this will ever change. By the way, I am trying and taken DBT 2x and most of the time I give it my all using all I have and never feel differently if not worse. I have some strong headed parts who never back down. When they have, sh** hits the fan. It's a cocktail of hatred, extreme sadness, confusion, and a struggle to find a reason to continue on and we've done that forever and we're fed up.

 

[joeylittle]

Re-consider going inpatient?

 

[Muttly]

I understand being fed up. It can be so freaking exhausting and difficult. Right now everyone is super noisy inside our head and *I* wish they would shut up. It is so much better than it used to be though. This is something that can get better. It can change. I'm better than I was, although I still have work to do. I have two friends, that I met through a group, who have DID and are much much better. Hang in there.

 

[Punky143]

Thank you. I don't know of anyone else who has this and all the other stuff and because of that it makes it worse. I don't know how to do trauma work and maintain everything else. I'm overwhelmed but I know I have to deal with this now if I want to move forward with life.

 

[whiteraven]

Thank you. I don't know of anyone else who has this and all the other stuff and because of that it mak...

I'm sorry you're struggling, @Punky143 - it *can* get better, even though it doesn't seem like that right now. When I was doing intense trauma work, I was very unstable. That's why I stopped. I was far more functional after, and reached a point where most of us (there's always that one) cooperate and treat each other with respect.

Not suggesting you stop trauma work. Only offering that it is possible and often preferable to lessen its intensity in order to manage the day-to-day better.

 

[Keen]

I'm sorry things are so tough, @Punky143 , I can relate, and I know many with DID can too. Its a huge struggle. But don't give up, it will get better, just keep moving forward through the struggle, and give yourself all the self-care you can, and just never give up.

 

[Sideways]

It does get better - it takes a while, but honestly it really does get better.

It makes sense that your littles are struggling with abandonment right now. Is there any activities you can do with them that might engage them and make them smile? That might be a little bit reassuring for them. I take my littles to the park for ice cream every now and then, just to give them a happy break and reassure them I’m still there for them. Some people find that letting them draw or colour or paint for a while helps... just some ideas.